𝑩𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒍 //𝑺𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒚 𝑲𝒊𝒅𝒔 𝑭𝑭//

~𝟰𝟰~

The next morning, the house was buzzing with excitement. Chan was constantly asking everyone if they had their passports and plane tickets. Han and Felix were like energizer bunnies, practically bouncing off the walls. Jeongin and Seungmin were bickering every five minutes, thankfully not actually mad at each other. I was just standing there, in the middle of the ruckus, trying to picture where I would be if I hadn't met the boys.

"Hey, you ready to go?" Changbin asked, walking up to me.

"Yeah. I think I have everything."

"Okay, I'll help you with your bag."

He took my bag from off the floor next to me, walking to the door. I followed, wanting to help but almost walked into Felix who was running up the stairs.

"I'm so sorry," he said, stopping to help stabilize me again.

"It's okay. You seem very excited."

"Yeah. I can't wait. I've never been anywhere besides Australia or here, so it's something completely new to me."

"So we're both new to this," I said, giving him a smile. He nodded, smiling, and went inside again.

I turned around to see Changbin closing the car boot, leaning up against it. I went to stand next to him, leaning on the car.

"Do you think Lee Know will ever forgive me?" I asked him before being able to stop myself.

"Forgive you for what?"

"For... For not trusting his judgement."

"Is that really what happened? Because the way I see it, you were trying to protect him. I think he was just overly sensitive because Geneviève came back into his life. You didn't do anything wrong."

"But if I had just not said anything and trusted her, then this wouldn't have happened."

"Let me ask you this. Why did you not trust her? What told you that you couldn't trust her?"

"I guess... I just got a bad feeling. My gut told me something bad was going to happen."

"Then you had a reason not to trust her. We get trained at the academy to trust our instincts. You were just doing what you were trained to do. When he sees that, I think he's going to be the one asking for forgiveness."

I nodded, but the frown stayed plastered on my face. He must have noticed, because he came to stand in front of me, taking my hands in his.

"I know I haven't spent as much time with you lately, but I see how much this bugs you. And I want to assure you that you don't have to feel guilty. You were just doing what any one of us would have done. And I know it doesn't help much, but if you want me to talk to him, or just want to talk to me, you know where to find me."

He gave my hands a squeeze, and my mind jumped back to the first time I met him. When I thought about it, I couldn't think of a reason for me to have been scared of him at the beginning. In reality he was so soft and caring. I smiled at him before I heard the front door open.

"Let's get going," I heard Chan say from the door.

We all got into the car, me taking a seat between Hyunjin and Changbin. I leaned my head on Changbin's shoulder.

"Thank you," I whispered, to which he rested his head on top of mine.

"You're welcome," he whispered back, making me smile.

...

On the plane, the commander had bought nine seats, all in rows of three on the one side of the plane. Han, Felix and Seungmin quickly filed into the back row, Chan and Lee Know taking the middle row and Jeongin and Hyunjin the front row. Changbin was walking behind me, talking to me. I stopped in my tracks when I realised I was standing at the open seat next to Lee Know.