SINFUL PASSION -ATEEZ Werewolf

Chapter 51

" are you sure you are ok babe?"  Jongho checked the bita for the nth time today,  hongjoong giggled hugging him as the others chatted.

" let's go have a shower" He suggested pulling the alpha from the couch, they excused themselves to go shower and sleep a little,  Seonghwa went to his room too, he feels very exhausted, he wants to rest a little before going to visit wooyoung,  he might be discharged today or tomorrow maximum, he can't wait to have the omega by his side again,  as soon as he entered the room, he heard Lucas calling him, he stopped walking and felt anxious to look back.

" Seonghwa... tell when you will keep ignoring me??"

Seonghwa looked nervously at him, and sat on his bed.

" I'm not ignoring you Lucas.." he mumbled fidgeting with the him of his sleeves.

" really?!!! For two weeks we haven't spoken a word and you leave whenever you see me in a room?!!"

" it's just we didn't happen to talk that's it..."

" are you mad at me?! Did i did something wrong or did i hurt you?" He asked genuinely, the thought of bothering the omega killed him.

" no you didn't I'm ok." 
He was lying,  he wasn't ok, he was mad at himself, mad at what he did, mad that he for a moment liked what was going on, mad that he started to think of the alpha differently..
He is so mad...

Lucas got closer to him, he sat in front of him on his knees.

" If i ever did something that hurt you tell me Seonghwa, don't even hold it back for a second, I never want to see you like this, i hate it when we don't talk or bother each other, if i ever did anything I'll do whatever it takes to make it up for you,  you have no idea how much i cherish you...."  he finished holding the omega's hands, Seonghwa shivered a little and withdrawed his hands gently, avoiding his gaze.

Say it you coward! You promised yourself you will and whatever happens happens.... do it... DO IT!

The voices in Lucas's head screamed at him, he was still at his position looking him up, he cleared his throat and spoke up getting the omega's attention..

" Hwa... there's been something that i wanted to tell you,  I know you might seriously hate me after, but you deserve to know, I just hope you understand that i had no choice in that nor i was able to control my feelings, Seonghwa.. I love you,   like i really do... I love you, so much it kills me seeing you with someone else, I want to bring the whole world for you, I want to love you every single day I'm on earth, I have no idea how it started or even why?! But i can't control it! I know you will never accept it and will never be with me, you love wooyoung, but I just needed to tell you, that moment when I kissed you, it was so fucking special and meant the whole universe to me, i will never regret it even if you did, I want you to know that You're the love of my life Seonghwa... i never loved someone like that before, nor will, and I'm always here for you, as a friend, whenever you need one.."

he finished,  tears were streaming down his cheeks, he looked down feeling ashamed to look at him, Seonghwa was extremely astonished by his speech, he had no idea how could he react, or what to say in those situations, he felt lots of emotions he can't put a finger on, he brought the alpha's chin up with his finger, making him look up.

" it's ok don't cry, thank you for telling me..." he smiled warmly at him, trying to make him calm down, if you asked him have you ever thought that a man would go down on his knees and confess his love to him he would say absolutely not, part of him felt touched by it, the other part felt bad for the alpha, he loved the wrong one..