Like The Stars From Above

CHAPTER 1

Your name screams familiarity
That's why you caught my attention so easily
Though, how could I forget your name?
When by just seeing it makes me go insane?

WHEN I WAS A KID, I once asked my mom why you can't reach the stars in the sky. And then she replied me with: “Sometimes, all beautiful things are best seen from afar.”

I was quite confused to it, not until I grew up and realized that she was right. My admiration from afar with Terrence is quite an enjoyment for me. Even though he doesn't know we have the same school when we entered college, it was always fine with me.

But then seeing the accepted request from my notification makes me think of the worst.

Adding Vonn Terrence Santiago on Facebook is the last thing I wanted to do in my life. Because I'd rather sit and relax while I try to move on with him without any attachments. What happens on the app we used to talk stays in that app. It's also my...proof of him that I don't like him that much. That I'm not looking forward for us in the future...

I'm not afraid of rejection, it's their way of telling me I'm not pretty enough to have the right to like them.

Well actually, it's not like in my whole life, no one ever dared to tell me I'm pretty. Sure, some men tried liking and even tried pursuing me but whenever I look in the mirror, my self confidence is just so low that whenever someone avoids me, I always conclude that it's because I'm not... pretty enough in their eyes.

Kaya nga ngayon, natatakot ako. Natatakot na agad ako na ngayong alam na niya ang presensya-mostly my face, of course. Natatakot ako na once malaman niya na may gusto ako sa kanya, iwasan niya rin ako at ipamukha sa akin na bawal ang simpleng pagkagusto sa kanya.

Kaya nga nanatili ako rito sa sitwasyon na ito. An inches away from him. Admiring him from afar. Kasi sa ganito, malaya ako. Malaya ako na na-e-express ko ang pagkagusto ko sa kanya nang wala siyang reaksyon. Malaya sa... lahat.

I admit that I felt an excitement within me when we are now connected. Here, at least on Facebook. I mean, who wouldn't be sad about it, right? But looking back on the past...

I couldn't just stay this on my mind so I decided to chat my friends.

🥰Sabog kami🥰

Liora Farianne:

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Akala ko wala nang magrerespond sa kanila, pero nakaseen agad si Sera- short for Seraphina. Si Celestia-our other friend-well, paniguradong tulog siya ngayon or may ginagawa. Well, that's fine. Someone to talk to for now is all what matters.

Seraphina:

-Anoyon luka nangigising pa ng tao eh

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Liora Farianne:

TANGA, HINDI