Fate...the word which can change someone completely.
It can be good for someone...it can be bad for someone.It can change people in good way or it can turns people in bad way too.
No one can change it...It's predetermined. Once you turn your path to...
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Every Doctor in OR, operating room where doing there best. It's been five hours but still not a single Doctor distract away from it. Only one thing blinks in there eyes...life...life of that small kid.
I was praying along with one other intern who looks more professional than me. I was literally trembling witnessing how much of critical situation it was. There where more chance of negative news rather than positive which fears me more.
It's not like I never witness death in hospital but this case is different cause I never witness patient between two situation at same time life and death situation.
A alone tear left for my eyes as soon as beeping sound of ventilator stop and straight line flaunt in sharp green colour. I was crying. No one cried cause they knew they can either save him or otherwise.
They are...we are doctors not God. To be honest we will never be... we are just humans with different skills.
" You ok...are you crying " the other intern standing beside me asked and that's when I noticed I was continuously wiping my tears away.
Shaking my head as no I rush towards washroom cause I don't want anyone to see me like this. Cause I don't want anyone to assume me as a weak Doctor.
But how I am going to hide myself from Namjoon oppa who always read my expression with my eyes.
Later in evening I was not feeling myself. I wanted to go home but Namjoon planned something else. He wanted to take me out knowing I will be zone out for whole day.
I tried to decline but no he will never listen me and ofcourse treat was something I will never going to miss... chickens.
" You cried today " Namjoon asked me looking straight into my hazel eyes which hesitantly looks back into his. I just nod cause there's no reason to lie or to hide.
" Jisoo you are a Doctor, don't get so emotional about things like this. It's common. You have to attend many surgeries on your own too, sometimes it might failed, but it doesn't mean you will always cry and get emotional... every doctor present there felt bad for that child... every doctor who failed surgeries always felt bad and sometimes lose there confidence but know this it's fate, we doctors will do our best but if it's patients fate then no one can stop that...he said and again I couldn't help but tear up. It's true every word he said is true but still somewhere I felt bad. Why fate can't be change.
Again I didn't noticed I was wiping my tears away when Namjoon stood from his chair and hug me. Patting my back he soothe me like everytime.
