Weddings. Vanya Nadine Joson dreaded weddings. Within her circle of friends, she was the only one remaining single and unmarried. Single, for as long as she could remember. She was slowly accepting the fact that she'll grow old alone, and she was al...
Most of my friends are getting married. Cel and Timmy got married last year, pati yung dalawang ka-team ko noon sa training sa work na close ko rin, they just tied the knot last month.
Now naman Soren just asked for our help earlier because he's planning to propose to Kirsten next week. Balak niya raw pumunta sa foundation week sa school namin dati kasi sa abandoned drawing room sa rooftop yung madalas nilang tambayan ni Kirsten noon and he wants to propose there. Buti na lang wala silang pasok ng Saturdays and invited din kaming alumni for foundation week.
I'm happy and excited for the both of them but somehow, I feel a little bit pressured. Most of the people from my batch are either getting married or getting pregnant. They're responsible enough for their own lives or to build their own family while I'm still living with my parents tapos I still have a curfew at the age of 26. Gets ko naman to kasi house pa rin to nila Papa so I have to follow his rules and I don't want them to worry. Unlike before, mas lax naman na sa amin ni Kuya Vonn yun basta magsasabi kami ahead of time.
I'm thankful naman kasi I'm earning a decent amount of money from work and thankfully, okay ang environment sa workplace ko. Mababait mga kasama ko sa team and kahit mga boss din namin even though may times lang talaga na stressful dahil sa workload.
But I haven't been traveling kasi ayaw ako payagan ni Mama at Papa sa long drives. Mas maigi daw na kasama ko sila at least I'm safe and idagdag pa raw na babae ako tapos mag-isa lang ako. What if something happens daw and no one's around to help me? I get their point naman kasi safety always comes first.
I don't want to take what I have for granted pero I couldn't help but feel a little bit sad kasi parang aside from my job, I'm not going anywhere. I can't travel on my own, I can't move out kasi Papa said it's more practical that I live with them para mas less ang gastos ko and mas makakaipon ako for myself while the people around me are taking the next steps and so far, it's getting scarier each time my age is nearing 30 than 20s.
I can't help but wonder what's next for me? It feels like I'm stuck.
Or maybe, I should make a list?
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I'M THANKFUL FOR:
- My family. We're complete and Mama and Papa's still strong even though sometimes hindi naiiwasaan na magkaron sila ng health problems. But thankfully, it's not something na hindi nadadaan sa gamot and balanced diet.
- My friends. Kahit we have a life of our own, we're still so supportive of each other and we keep in touch once in a while.
- My job. It keeps me financially stable and independent for now and it makes me happy na once in a while I get to pamper myself and splurge on the the things that I like and I get to treat my family too. Nakakapag-abot na rin ako sa parents ko to help pay the bills at home or pambili ng grocery and may enough pa akong natatabi for my savings.
- The secondhand sedan I was able to buy last year from my salary.
- My health.
WHAT I CAN DO TO INVEST ON MYSELF:
- Enroll on a pilates (or dance) class to be more healthy and physically fit. - Attend seminars and participate sa training for up-skill programs para mas gumanda resume ko. - Get a master's degree (here or abroad). - Find a place and try to live on my own kahit for a month lang? *hopefully payagan* - Additional 10-15K on my savings account at the end of the year. - Have a spontaneous road trip on my own. Anywhere. Kahit 3 hours away lang from the city to prove na kaya ko.
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