Stuck on Pause (For the Record # 2)

CCLXXVIII

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July 19, 3pm

I'm so confused, I don't get it. If I told him I understand, then why would I be jealous?

Should I be jealous?

I want to ask Cel pero at the same time ayaw ko rin kasi officemates sila ni Andrei. I hope Kirsten's not busy, I need answers. :(

[Messenger]

Kirsten 💚

4:39 p.m.

Vanya
Hi! Are you busy?

Kirsten
Uy di naman
Dito ako sa coffee shop sa tapat ng office
Nagpapalipas ng traffic sandali bago umuwi
Ano pala yun?

Vanya
It's about Andrei :(
Super confused kasi ako
Is it okay if we talk about this?
Baka mamaya stress ka rin sa work tapos makadagdag ako

Kirsten
Hala hindi naman
Sige lang. Ano yun?

Vanya
Kasi he told me na nagpromise siya sa tita niya before na he'll take yung friend ng anak ng tita niya on a date. Anyway, that was before we even knew each other. E his tita is holding out the promise daw kahit humindi na siya so ayun, he has no choice

Kirsten
Ahhh okay
Tapos?

Vanya
Then ayun, sabi ko it's fine kasi gets ko naman talaga na minsan may relative na ganun especially if nakapag promise din tayo. And then, may friend din kasi ako, he owns a resto with his kuya. The last time I dined there, ginawa akong taste tester ng kuya niya and his kuya's asking for me now to taste test ulit for dinner and I asked if I could bring along andrei with me

Kirsten
Teka backtrack konti
Sino tong friend na to?
Bat never been heard siya sakin?

Vanya
Kahn

Kirsten
Kahn?

Vanya
Yung ex ko nung hs. Unexpected lang din nagkita kami ulit kasi pareho kaming abay sa kasal ng mutual friends namin and then may bridesmaid duties ako nun, di ko alam na siya yung kasama ko that day. Long story short, we talked and okay na kami. We're friends. Sinabi ko rin naman kay Andrei yung about kay Kahn

Kirsten
Okay... pero dito kay Kahn, friends lang talaga?

Vanya
Yup. Friends. Ngayon lang din siya nag reach out sakin after 2 months ever since nung cake testing and birthday niya a few days after that

Kirsten
Okay gets
Balik kay andrei

Vanya
So ayun, because may dinner date din siya tonight, I told him na sayang kasi kasama ko rin dapat siya dun sa resto nila kahn. Then I told him na enjoy yung dinner

Kirsten
Hala 🤣
Bat mo sinabi yun?

Vanya
Ha?

Kirsten
Teh, may ibang makakadate yung tao bakit gusto mo mag enjoy siya?

Vanya
E sayang yung pagkain kung di niya ma eenjoy? But okay, he also pointed that out tapos bakit okay lang daw sakin yun. For me naman kasi, I really understand his reason kaya kahit ganun, I still want him to make the most out of it, you know? To enjoy the company and dinner. But then he asked me why am I not upset and jealous over it

Kirsten
Oo nga
Ayan din tanong ko
Bakit?

Vanya
Kasi... I don't know
I'm really not?
Am I supposed to?

Kirsten
Okay ito ha
Itong si Soren nung talking stage pa lang kami nung college, may iba ring may gusto sa kanya na nilalapitan siya. Girl, dun pa lang nagseselos na ako kahit di ko pinahahalata yun kay Soren pero deep inside, nagseselos talaga ako kahit gets ko na wala namang kami HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Vanya
Ohh... okay
Pero anong magagawa ko? 😔
Pipilitin ko ba sarili ko na magselos?

Kirsten
Hindi naman
Ilang months na ba kayong dating ni Andrei?

Vanya
2 months

Kirsten
Ilang dates sa 2 months na yan?

Vanya
5 dates

Kirsten
At sa 5 dates na yan ano na nagawa niyo?

Vanya
Ha?

Kirsten
Nagkiss man lang ba kayo

Vanya
Sa forehead and cheek
Sometimes he holds my hand and he hugged me twice

Kirsten
JUSKO
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
SA 2 MONTHS YAN PALANG?

Vanya
Yes? Ano ba dapat?

Kirsten
Sa 2 months na yan marami na kaming nagawa ni Soren ha. Kahit label ba wala pa rin kayo? Still "dating" ??

Vanya
Yes??
Still dating

Kirsten
Tapos di ka nagseselos?

Vanya
Hindi?
Kirsten confused na talaga ako 😭

Kirsten
Okay ito magtatanong din ako sayo ha

Vanya
Sure
Ano yan?

Kirsten
Gusto mo ba talaga siya?