After All This Time// Sebastian Sallow x Reader Hogwarts Legacy Fanfiction

Chapter 74

Sebastian's POV//

I wasn't sure how to feel after watching those memories. Sure, it was filling in some of the gaps, but still, I wasn't sure what to think of y/n. If she was willing to take these memories away from me in the first place, then was I really someone of importance to her?

I think I would continue to have these doubts until she showed me what really happened the night they were taken. I was considering finding her again to demand that she show me. I knew it was the next one I wanted to see. 

I didn't care if the memories were shown to me in order, like how she was doing. I really didn't. I just wanted to stop feeling like I was. Like I'm missing something. In my chest it felt like there was a giant gaping hole, and it needed to be filled, the answers to how lying somewhere within this girl's memories. 

This whole thing was painful to consider. I started to think about how this felt from her side of things, but knowing what little I did, I still couldn't figure out why she did it. It was unfair. Why am I suffering, when she's fine? Why am I the one that had to be put through this and not her?

If this guy, whatever his name was, is really after her, why was I brought into it in the first place? 

I considered going to Ominis and asking him more questions, but he never seemed to give me the answers I wanted. He always told me to 'ask y/n', or it wasn't his answer to give. It made me irrationally angry, knowing that everyone knew things about my past that I hadn't the slightest memory of. I decided to go speak with him anyway. He needed to understand that if it's regarding my memories, he has no right to keep things from me. 

Y/n's POV//

By the time I made it back to my dorm, it was already late in the afternoon. Imelda was laying on her bed tossing a quaffle up in the air and catching it every few seconds. Nerida was going on to Imelda about something to do with the mer-people in the lake, though no one was ever really sure what she was talking about in that regard.

I sort of knew about her ventures with the mer-people, as I'd once collected a gift from them for her back in my fifth year. I thought it was absolutely silly that she couldn't swim, and still can't. Seems she has no intention of learning how, even though I feel like that would be a big part of being 'liaison to the mer-people'.

"Skipping class again, are we?" Imelda said as I entered the room. 

"Not intentionally," I said with a sigh. "What did I miss?"

"Not much, or, not anything you don't already know. Divination was as boring as ever. Though we did get assigned twelve inches on what we've been going over recently."

"Sounds great," I said sarcastically. More work. I thought taking my O.W.L.s in my fifth year as a new student was rough, but seventh year was a whole other monster all on its own. Not only were we expected to pass all of our exams with flying colors, we were supposed to figure out what we wanted to do with the rest of our lives. 

Right now, the only thing I could think about was the present. At one point I'd intended on being an auror, but now I wasn't sure. I'd seen enough action in these last few years to last me a lifetime, and a more quiet lifestyle definitely seemed more up my alley at the moment. 

I'd always thought that Sebastian and I would end up together after school as well, but I wasn't sure anymore. Even if we somehow managed to become friends again, I'm nor sure he'd want me in the same ways that he used to. It was a sad thought, but I needed to start getting used to it. It was definitely a conceivable reality. 

"I don't mean to press," Imelda started, sitting up on her bed. "But how are you doing with everything? Ominis told me what happened."

"I'm not sure, to be honest," I replied. 

"Well if you need to talk about it or anything, I suppose I can lend an ear if I'm not too busy."

"Thanks, Imelda," I said. 

After getting ready for bed, I laid my head down on my pillow. I heard a light crunching sound as I did so, but brushed it off, trying my best to get comfortable. As I shifted my head, I felt it again. Frustrated, I reached my hand under the pillow to reveal the culprit. My first though is that I'd left some parchment out on my bed and it somehow ended up there, but when my hand closed around a letter, I let out a quiet gasp. 

He's getting more sneaky. 

He must know that people have been intercepting them, if he's hiding them now. 

Of course, I didn't know if it was from Charles yet. Imelda got up to put out the lights, and I pulled the letter out in front of me. I didn't want to open it here- I didn't need my roommates seeing this. I knew I was supposed to turn them in, but my curiosity got the better of me. 

As soon as I decided that Imelda and Nerida were asleep, I slipped out of the dorm and into the common room with the letter in my hand. 

I started to rethink my actions as I pulled the seal open, but I still continued. Part of me still wanted to be able to do something. If I could at least figure out what his next actions were, then maybe I could have a chance at doing something. I needed to get back at him for the things he made me do last time. 

No more going in blind.