I can't do this anymore

Chapter 1 - lets talk London

First off I'm not following the real time line of players for each club etc so it won't be correct or anything and there will be Spanish but it will be in slashes like /this/ or will be translated  after and I am English so my Spanish culture knowledge might not be great but just go w it. And fyi this is based of my own little fake senarios and my first so lmk if it's shit and what you wanna see xx

No one's pov:

Carmeñ loved barça. It was her home and had been for so long. She never wanted to leave. Everyone she needed was here, Alexia, Mapi, Ona, Lelia, Aitana, basically the whole team. She loved barça so so much. It was her place and she loved everyone. Especially Alexia and Mapi. They both knew EVERYTHING about Carmeñ and her dark past. Alexia had been her mum and legal guardian since she was 15. Carmeñ had had a bad childhood and home life and Lex had saved her from that and had loved Carmeñ enough to make up for the lack of love she got growing up. Mapi was like her older sister and best friend. Mapi helped Lex become her legal guardian and had been there every day. Carmeñ had been playing for barça since she was 11 in the academy and signed at 15 straight after her GCSEs. She had bee playing since for 9 years now and didn't  she herself moving. But here she is having to make a life changing decision.
Carmeñ's pov:

August

/'I don't k who that to do Lex'/ I moaned into my pillow.
/'Just breath and we will figure it out together'/ she told me rubbing my back. It always make me feel safe when she did that like I could've just stay in there forever. Lex make me feel safe and I owed her so much. I love her so much and has done so much for me.

/' okay I think I have to go to London. No one else will be there with him and I can't leave him there by his self that's just cruel.'/ I said
/' okay then you know you will have the whole team behind you. We can go talk to Jonatan tomorrow and sort something out'/ She said still rubbing my back.

Listening to her heart beat with her playing with my hair I fell asleep on her ready for a long day tomorrow.

Next day

I woke up to Simba my cockapoo licking my face. I laughed and sat up to scratch her belly. Me and Lex have 2 dogs.

Narla - Pomeranian

Simba - cockapoo

I loved our dogs. I suddenly felt a lump in my through and could feel a couple of tears roll down my face. I didn't want to leave. Ever. But particularly because of the reason I had to leave. But I had to go. I was his last bit of family and I wasn't going to leave him in a new country by himself. Lex came in a saw that I had been crying.
She rushed over
/' I don't wanna leave Lex'/ I sobbed into her shoulder.
/' I know my love and you don't have to if you really don't want to'/ she replied.
/' I really don't want him to go ether'/ I cried Evan harder as I spoke.
/'No one does he is such a big part of all our lives but he is in pain and needs to do this'/ She was crying to at this point. All convosation's around him was emotional.
/' I can't live without him Lex he's my last bit of family'/ I choke out between sobs
/' don't say that Cars you have me and Mapi and all the team. You have Jill and the Dutch girls. It will hurt like last time but you have managed before and you will again. You have so much to live for and do many people you love you'/ she tried to comfort me but I could tell she was hurting aswell. We sat like that crying for a while comfortable with each other. When suddenly Lex's phone started ringing.
/'hello?'/
/'hello Alexia what time will you and Carmeñ be here?'/
/'hey coach and we will be there in around an hour if that is okay?'/
/'Yep perfect see you then'/
/'okay bye coach'/
/'bye Alexia'/

Time skip

Me and Lex arrive at barça training ground. Looking around I realise how much im going to miss this place. It is my home and forever will be.
We walk into Jonatan's office.
/'hello girls please have a seat'/
/'hello coach'/ me and Lex say in sinc and we sit in frount of his desk.
/'so Carmeñ and you sure this is what you want to do?'/ he said to me sounding a bit sad as he did.
/'listen coach I love this club with my whole heart and never want to leave but you know the situation that I'm in. I feel like I have to go but just until he's in peace then I would like to come back. It really does hurt to leave this club is everything to me and it will be hard but I have to do it.'/ I spoke honestly as I felt tears in the corners of my eyes.
/'okay then we will be very sad to see you go but I understand and a soon as you are ready there will be a new contract on the table I promise you that'/ he spoke with confidence.
/'thank you so much for everything coach honesy you always made me feel comfortable and I know that I came be hard to deal with with my past but really thank you it is much appreciated'/ I said.
I watched as he came round the table to hug me.
/'you to queen'/ he said to Lex
/'stoppppp'/ she complained at the nickname but came and joined
/'any way'/ he said wiping his eyes as I didn't the same /'let's talk London'/

We decided on Chelsea. I would be on transfer there for one season and when I get back there will be a 3 year contract waiting for me. I would leave at the end of this preseason so in a month. After me and Lex left the office lots of tears we shred but it was time for a new chapter in London

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Okay so first chapter done what do you think and I will try to update daly but will see. Also ik it might be a bit confusing rn but it will start to make sence as we go along. Ty for reading bye xx