Thin Line In Between

Chapter 14

Tee felt worse today after what he did to Copter. He didn't know why he did that. These days, he having a hard time controlling what he'll do or even thinking. Maybe he needs to see psychiatry, for his mind and body seems not attached to each other.

He didn't understand why Copter said he didn't loves him when he missed him like crazy and that losing him like he lost his life altogether. He didn't know why Bas and Godt keeps telling him that he didn't understand Copter enough when they both had been living together all these years happily.

He regret he ruined it. He regret he couldn't stopped himself from lusting over the guy Tae and later Kimmon. These days he kept thinking about the two guys he messed with, which been the reason his break up with Copter. However, that part he couldn't put together and he couldn't really understand no matter how hard he was thinking.

He even tried going out to clubs at night to confirm his old habit, sexcapade. He wanted to make sure whether it's true it came again, but no matter how many other people approach him, be it man or woman, he didn't have any lust towards them, no matter how drunk he was.

So, he knows that he truly still loving Copter, because all those times, he kept thinking about Copter.

Still, even the night he messed with Kimmon, his head full of Copter, but he still doing it. That makes him baffled and confused. But one thing for sure, he really still loving Copter truly. He was sure of that.

So, when Copter taking his side earlier in the lift, came rushing that filled his brain the thinking that Copter is actually loves him and still loves him so much. Maybe, when he showed him how much he still loves the dimple guy, Copter might change his mind and coming back to him instead.

But that get backfire. He hope that at least, Copter could treat him better at least for a friend. But now after what he had done, he had ruined it all. How much will he hurt Copter again and again? How selfish he could be?

Along the way from the car park area to his apartment's floor, Tee's mind had been at the time when he forced himself on Copter in the elevator, that he didn't realize coming into the bright light of his apartment. Only when he saw the stern face of his mother and confused face of his father that he was brought out of his long thought.

"Mommy, dad. What are you doing here?" asked him right away, while coming closer to them, who was seated sternly on the sofa in the living room.

"We just got here. Don't you think that we were too late, Tee?" asked his mother, Praewa making Tee swallowing his saliva. They knew. How did they knew?

"Mommy...I...." Tee tried to talk, but his mother cut him.

"Why?" Tee never felt this nervous his whole life. He knew how much his mother adored Copter, but this is not what he wanted either, though this was the result of his irresponsibility act. He admit that.

"I...don't know...I just..."

"Just? Don't know? What kind of answer is that? How could we understand you when you don't even know what were you doing?" this time it was his father, Chatchai asking him.

"Dad, I really didn't understand what was going on with myself either. I didn't meant for this to happen. I never want to lose Copter. I loves him dad, mommy, please believe me." Tee wasn't sure the reason he tried to convince his parents when he knew he couldn't convince Copter to come back.

"But why did you let things get this far? I warned you times and times again. I told you not to hurt Copter no matter what! I promised his parents, I promised him. Why did you have to do this to him? And me?"