Mega Object Show Fanfiction - Requests: [CLOSED]

The Void - Genderfluid BH angst

Requested by: Blackholebfbsbiggestfan:33

Heyyy ya'll I just wanna quickly say tysm for over 1k reads. Never thought I'd make it this far lmaooo. I love that story you made Blackholebfbsbiggestfan;33. I hope you update it soon, I'm invested. Lol. IT'S CALLED "AWOKEN" AND ITS ACTUALLY GOOD LIKE AH YOU MF ILY BUT A CLIFFHANGER WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYyyyyyyyy... TREE NOo-

CONTEXT!!!!:

BH is genderfluid, (Obvi, you read the title), and is experiencing lots and lots of dysphoria. Slay big man your doing great <3. !!!SH WILL BE IN THIS IF NOT COMFY DONT READ!!! Humanized because I can't do shit with object anatomy. BH uses all pronouns, (I have no clue how genderfluidity works but OH WELL)

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Black Hole P.O.V:

Man I feel like shit. It's been like this the entire day. I feel like shit I want to die. 

Sure that might not be preventing death but I just can't take it anymore. Everything hurts, I hate myself I can't fucking do this anymore. Every day I'm reminded how much of a freak I am. I just can't keep going.

I give up and walk into the bathroom next to my room with one thing on my mind: I need a razor.

Opening the door to the bathroom, I immediately walk over to the cabinet. Rummaging through the shelves, looking for something sharp to take my anger and frustration out on. I suddenly felt a sharp pain on my finger, wincing I realize I had found what I was searching for. Grabbing at the source of the feeling I finally find the fruit of my labors.

Gripping it close I slowly but aggressively drag the blade across my fore arm. I flinch a bit as it carves into my skin. Having that familiar feeling of blood oozing out of my arm. I pull my arm up again and repeat the same process. 

While I do this I begun to get lost in my own thoughts, contemplating my whole life up to this point. How did I end up here? In a cramped bathroom ready to end it all?

Stupid kid. Should've died in the streets.

Can't even decide what he wants to be.

Oh my god! You can't be genderfluid! It doesn't exist, your faking it to get attention.

You were never good enough you brat.

Well SHE doesn't know what's good for HER

HE's so dumb! HE can't do anything right!

The hell are you anyways?

It's not that hard. Male or Female? There's no other options.

I snap out of my trance to find 8 or so lines of crimson blood dripping from both my arms. I didn't realize it a first, but tears a streaming down my face like rivers. I don't make a sound, I don't feel sad. I feel empty. I feel numb.

But it still hurts so much.

"8la#(k~ H0!#3-.?" 

I jump at the sudden realization that someone was at the door. To make it worse I couldn't tell who it was. Their words blurring together I vaguely hear my name in their words. I think, I have no clue. Now tears are gushing out of my eyes like waterfalls and I can barley hear anything at all. Only the ringing in my ear can be heard. 

"Ar3 y0# iN tH3r3#?"

I hear them again. Still can't tell who it is, but I can sort of make out what their saying. I can't speak, the words lodged in my throat. I want to tell them that I was okay, but I can't bring myself to do it. I would be lying after all. I swallow the lump in my throat and attempt to answer.