Hello, Ms.Jackson

apologies with ukuleles.

I would like to apologize to all my readers for neglecting you I'm going to be completely honest with you since I've stopped updating I've stayed high and I've begun drinking, a lot. And I don't plan on stopping anything soon. It's helped me forget so much already and I'm pretty sure I'm happy about that, I'm actually drunk right now as I write it his, I'm not posting this for a pitty party, I actually really enjoy how I'm feeling under the influence.

I'm just writing this to let you know that as I continue down this path I'll probably won't write for a little bit longer. I love you all but I've got to figure my own shit out and find the motivation I need to finish my stories I won't be interacting very much. I am sorry, honestly. If things were different I'd love to but they're not so I'm just going to continue to drink and get high until I feel better.

I'm sorry, truly sorry. including to her, I know she said she didn't want a stoner girlfriend but after she left I just needed a way out. A way to feel less and weed is what I found and then alcohol a few months later. Who knew it'd hit this hard and go as far as I've taken it. It still hurts but at least I'm starting to realize that she no longer loves me anymore and that I need to get over her. I took way to long to learn that and now I need to work on doing just that, so I won't be around for a bit.

I'm sorry.