- Verge of tears
(Poem by me)
Passenger in my parents' car
I look out of the window
Covering up my self inflicted scars
Drowning stupidly in my sorrow
So many friend groups outside
I see so many couples
Meanwhile, in my flaws, I hide
At such a simple task, I struggle
Do not cry, continue to smile
They will bully you otherwise
You know, they can be vile
Hide and miss the sunrise
I watch friends have fun
I watch couples kissing
Yet I never see the sun
Is this what I am missing?
So many opportunities
Yet I reject them all
Including my community
Into the black hole, I fall
I feel as I might be vanishing
A lonely fate, I will not fight
For my social needs, this is damaging
Only silence follows me into the night
Can anyone hear me?
Do I truly exist?
Lost in all these theories
True reality gets dismissed
Am I just a cautionary tale?
Or do you actually see me?
My concept of "self" is so frail
That it is hanging from a tree
I cannot connect
To anyone, not even you
As an outsider, do I earn respect?
Do I earn rescue?
A sense of "self" I now lack
Nothing feels real
I see only a stranger when I look back
Barely, I remember what I feel
A lost soul just wandering
Aimlessly, on the dunes of sand
Ice cold, it is snowing
I do not see the helping hand
This is now my fate
I chose this loneliness
After so much hate
Yet still, I am failing the test
I am just a construct
Not my own person
Though I fail what they instruct
In this world without immersion
Everyone approaches me with ill intent
Because why me out of all people?
They just fool me, like their friends
They must be all evil
[Written in: 27/09/2023]
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Poetry♦️♦️♦️ A collection of my songs and poems. From 2023 and onwards. They are free to interpret. I removed my other collection with my earlier works. They just no longer reflect me as a person and as an artist. Disclaimer: Some of them tell fictional s...
