🃏 Adulthood 🃏

♣️ Narcissus ♣️

- Narcissus
(Poem by me)

What a beautiful flower you are
Striking yellow petals
And you see, what I see
You think you are special
In this field, you twinkle like a star
Of course, we all agree

What a toxic flower you are
Poisonous yellow petals
And you see, what I see
You know you are special
This field, you illuminate like a star
Of course, no one agrees

Why do you continue to complain?
When you cause your own pain
You desire love, yet you push it away
You want us to explain
Why out of everyone, you still remain
Why they all disobey

You are your own enemy
So you continue your self isolation
You have hurt enough people already
You are loved in your imagination
But now you are lonely
Losing grip of your identity

Rather poison yourself, than others
I appreciate your honesty
However, this does not change you
Such behaviour, you claim is modesty
But do you also not suffer?
I know you want to be loved too

What was the point of your ego death?
When it got reborn months later?
Still just as toxic as before
In love, yet you left her
And cried with that same breath
What truly is in your core?

Continue pushing yourself into depression
What even is your end goal?
To fall into your own reflection?
Over everything, you cannot have control
You are going to perish in your repression
How is this protection?

Narcissus, you can change
Become better, become a member
You can be a part of this society
You can go on a fun adventure
At social events, you can engage
Experience love, experience safety

This requires too much humility
A determination for such future
Hope alone is not enough
You must go after her
You will stop feeling lonely
You will stop tasting blood

Yet you keep on crying
Poisoning everyone with your toxic tears
All you do is complain, complain, complain
Where will you end up in a few years?
You are not even trying!
Your soul is so vain

When comforting, you talk about your life
The world seems to revolve around you
So you have no lover and no friends
Are any of your words even true?
You admire yourself in others' eyes
Can you not listen instead?

Narcissus, you cannot kiss your own lips
You cannot cuddle with yourself
And ask, why no one wants you
To criticism, you stay deaf
Inside of you, there resides a conflict
Humility, you must pursue

You cannot keep on talking to walls
Imagining, someone is there
You could speak with a real person
No, no, life is perfectly fair
You are simply not giving your all
Scared, that your issues will worsen

They told you to heal
Not to marry yourself
You are overdoing it
Too much medicine is bad for your health
It can cause you to no longer feel
Further pushing you down this pit

Only beautiful flowers get picked
You look pretty, yet they avoid you
You are so toxic, you paralyse them
Tired of the persona you have construed
Trying to be fully perfect
So that she does not get overwhelmed

Narcissus, are you even listening?
Or are you lost in your thoughts again?
What about the others?
Do you truly care about them?
I see your tears shimmering
Monochromatic, or filled with colours?

A mirror would suit you as a wife
Only to you, does your empty heart belong
No one could come close to your beauty
Anyone saying no, is fully wrong
You have known this all your life
This has allowed your cruelty

Only to yourself, are you loyal
Because you are immune to your poison
You are proud of the way you behave
As you gaze to the horizon
You smile in denial
You only take yourself to the grave

Why even bother then?
If no one will ever hear your voice?
Just rid of any progress
Narcissus, you have a point
So you feel contend
Unaware of your foolishness

[Written in: 20/07/2024]