Love You Goodbye II H.S

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March 25th 2015

The hospital walls are made of straw.

Four walls that once provided me with hope, have become undone.

There was nothing left for me at the hospital anymore.

No reason for me to sit in the uncomfortable leather chair.

No reason for me to return.

When I walked out of the hospital the day you died, I believed I never truly left.

The person I was when I walked in, and the person I was when I walked out, are now different.

One was filled with hope.

One is filled with grief.

The part of me clinging onto the hope that you will walk out with me is still there.

I think it will always be there.

March 26th 2015

When you died, your soul was bound to the stars.

It left me searching for you each night.

It left me guessing which star was you.

I spent years searching the stars.

I spent years guessing where you have gone.

Until I walked along the beach and saw footprints that mirrored yours.

Until I sat on a bench in the park and saw your name engraved into it.

Your soul may be in the stars, yet pieces of you are etched here on earth.

Here with me.

March 29th 2015

The day your soul left this earth, was the day mine did too.

My heart no longer beats the same.

My eyes no longer see the same.

My mind no longer thinks the same.

While I am physically here, my soul is with yours

Bound together in the stars.

March 31st 2015

Feelings of isolation burrowed

deep into my soul when you died.

I never felt isolated when you were here.

You mended the pain and the sorrow.

You dedicated glued parts of my heart that had been

shattered for years, back together again.

Piece by piece.

They no longer hurt me.

They no longer cut me.

I felt whole again.

Until you died, and my heart shattered.

With no one to glue it back together again.

April 4th 2015

I begged the stars for more time with you, and yet they took you anyway.

They left me guessing where you could have gone.

They left me wondering which star is you.

I wonder why they heard my cries, and took you anyway.