Falling in love all over again

Chapter 9: wedding night

Prisha's POV
I cried all the way to this room. The marriage was inside the Mahal itself. After the vidai, i was welcomed very warmly in the house. Everybody is so sweet here that i nearly cried.
Swallowing all the emotions I'm feeling i sat in the centre of jiju-shit no hukum's bed.

I am settled in  his room or should I say my or our room. Gosh!, this feels so terrible.
Tears welled up in my eyes again. I harshly brushed them away from my face but they shamelessly kept falling down. At this point I was literally sobbing.

The fact that I have always dreamt of being Mrs. Rudra ranawat, but here I am sitting in someone's room with his name behind mine. I don't know what to expect. I feel so angry at myself what will I answer rudra ? I betrayed him. My heart is purely filled with this bitter feeling called "guilt"

I decided to distract myself from my thoughts and got up and started looking around the room. I must say he has some really good taste. The room was way bigger than my old home. His room was giving royally Vibes. You idiot it's literally a palace what do you even expect?

I looked around and There was a big balcony with a swing attached to it. OH MY GOOODDD!! A swing. I screamed in excitement. I went there and started swinging on it. I was swinging myself forgetting all the shits that happened barely an hour ago. That's when I heard a clearing of throat. Oh holy mother..

I looked up to find him standing there, he had this sinister smirk over his face. Oh holy heaven. He stood there, he chuckled softly at my shocked face. Bhagwan jii !! Ye mere sath hi kyun hota hai. Karvali beizzati padh Gaya sukun? I thought.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice when he was already standing in front of me. As the realisation hit, I looked up into his eyes, not being able to meet his eyes, I turned my head down.I even started counting the lil patterns in my lengha.

"Mujhe nahi pata tha, apni suhagrat ki itni excitement hogi ki aap bachon ki tarah is swing par khelne lag jayengi.

He said in his husky voice with a little amusement in it.

He took another step forward
leaving no space between us. "Waise Rani saheba Umar toh aapki bache karne ki lagti hai. Bachon ki tarah khelne ki nahi.

I looked at him with confusion when it suddenly hit me. This man! Arghhhhhhhh! For holly mother's sake I am just 21 and kids at this age? Oh sorry i forgot this is Rajasthan.

My eyes went wide and my cheeks went the darkest shade of pink. "Nahi, nahi hum sacchi mein yaha nahi bethna chahste the voh excitement mein
Not able to speak because of his brutal stare at me i shut my eyes close. Aaj hi hona tha ye sab! I thought.

When a husky chuckle made me open my eyes.

"Aren't you tired Rani saheba? " To which I just shook my head in no. He kinda looked kinda  amused.

He raised his eyebrow "then wanna sit outside for a while?", and I nodded my head.

And we both took our seats on the swing keeping a little distance. Bhagwan jii? Ye kis awkward situation mein daal Diya mujhe. Mujhe toh laga tha jiju-shit sorry ! sorry!  hukum gussa karenge.
Par ye itne shant kyun beithe hai? Bhagwan ye kahi aane Wale tuffan se pehle ki Shanti toh nahi?
Let me ask him or my overthinking self won't let me be at peace.

"Ummm can I ask you something?" I asked being hesitant.

"Hmmmm" he just hummed.

"Aren't you gonna ask me about what happened an hour ago? Or won't you yell at me or hit me-

"First of all why would I hit MY WIFE ? nobody dares to hurt the queen of Rajasthan not even myself and second of all you aren't at fault so why would I yell at you ? And don't forget that I am a king myself and a real king doesn't punish the innocent souls. He said looking at my soul . My eyes contained warm tears inside them. not knowing what to say I just kept my head down and just nodded.
He lifted my chin i looked at him with my teary eyes. I swear I saw his eyes darkening.