Life of sadness 18+

a decision that will change

Early in the morning

"Hey dad, wake up.."

Khira was talking to the sleeping Richard who was slowly opening his eyes, he quickly flinched when he realized he was lying on top of Paul

"What's wrong Khira..?" Richard asked sleepily

Khira saw that Paul was still asleep and so she motioned for Richard to follow her, When Richard began to understand what was happening when she led him to his bedroom, he knew he would have a lot of explaining to do.

"Dad, I'm sorry for waking you up, but I had a bit of a headache at night, so I wanted to see where you got your painkiller pills... but I found something else..."

Khira pointed to Richard's bedside table and the open drawer where Richard kept his spare needles and drugs.

"You're not done with it, are you..?" *Khira asked dissapoined

"sweetie understand that I'm trying to stop.. you're right.. I haven't stopped.. but I'm trying.." *Richard looked sincerely into Khira's eyes

"I thought you were done with it.." *Khira said sadly

Richard didn't know what to say to her so he asked her if she was going to sleep, Khira said yes and Richard offered to be with her so she would know that her dad still likes her. He felt guilty that his doughter found out about this. Khira lay down in bed and covered herself again, Richard sat next to her on the bed for a while but then he got up and went outside to light a cigarette. It was still dark, it was about three in the morning, When he finished smoking he went back to Khira and lay down next to her. He knew that as a father he had failed her..

"Sleep good honey.." *Richard whispered

Then he fell asleep as well

Morning

Paul's pov

When Paul woke up, he noticed that Richard was no longer lying next to him, it seemed strange to him, so he went to look around the apartment, when he reached his bedroom, he saw Khira lying there sleeping next to Richard, so he carefully walked over to Richard and gently woke him up, Richard slowly opened his eyes and the first thing he looked at was Khira, he signaled Paul to go to the kitchen because he didn't want to wake her, Paul just nodded.

"Why did you slept with Khira? She had a nightmare or something?" * Paul asked

"No Paul.. something worse happened.. She woked me up because she found my injections.. officialy I am horrible father.." * Richard looked at the ground in disappointment

"Look Reesh I found them earlier, she will understeand, she is not a kid anymore and you know that, it will be okay" *Paul tried to cheer him up

Richard just sighed and thought about what happened yesterday.

"Yea.. she will understeand.. Paul may I ask, can you take care of Khira..? I know she is in bad mood.. maybe you can take her out for a walk or something.. I will go to tell the boys how things gonna be.. I need to do something.. I feel horrible.." *Richard told Paul

"Sure, I would like to spend some time with Khira. When are you going to tell them? Like now? Its 8am.." *Paul asked

"Yea propably now, I want to get rid of this feeling soon as possible"

Paul walked closer to Richard, put his arms around Richard's waist and kissed him, Richard kissed Paul back and rested his forehead on Paul's

"I love you Paul.."

Paul just smiled and gave Richard one more kiss, then Richard went to get dressed and left. Paul stayed home alone with Khira. He decided to let her sleep and not wake her himself, he was already after breakfast because he and Richard had a quick cereal and yogurt. After half an hour of Paul sitting in the kitchen reading the news, Khira woke up and went into the living room.