In the Shadows - Sebastian Sallow x reader (English)

Chapter 38

"I'm sorry," I sighed. Sebastian and I were lying in the large bed in the Room of Requirement, and I was resting my head on his bare chest. Sebastian scratched my head absentmindedly. Our make-out session had taken us to the bedroom, where I quickly stripped him of his dress shirt. When I made myself comfortable on his lap again, all the fun ended abruptly. In the heat of the moment, Sebastian's hand slid to my butt, and when he grabbed it, our tenderness was over for me. In my head, I was suddenly back in the entrance hall and harassed by Leander. I jumped in shock and gave Sebastian a headbutt that made us both see stars.

"No, I have to apologize," Sebastian said in a rough voice. "I wasn't thinking. I was just so intoxicated that I..." He stopped with a sigh and ran his free hand through his hair. "You couldn't know," I answered honestly, hoping to reassure him. I sat up a little and supported myself on my elbow. Sebastian did the same and looked at me with sad eyes. "But I could have guessed." I stroked his cheek. "I wanted it too! I wanted you to touch me so we could continue as usual." Desperate, I blew a kiss on his lips. "And I still want it. I want to be able to give myself completely to you again. I want to feel you. But that's only possible if we keep trying." Sebastian's gaze softened, and he placed his hand on my waist. "Do you want to take control of my hands?" he asked in a deep whisper that sent goosebumps up my body. I nodded and snuggled up to him. Our lips met in a passionate kiss. I carefully grabbed his wrist and let his hand slide down my curves. When I got to the hem of my top, I motioned to him that he should touch my skin instead of the fabric, and he understood immediately. Sebastian's hand went under my top and gently stroked my back. I snuggled closer to him, and he helped with his hand. Our breathing became increasingly heavy, and I felt warmer and warmer. As if at the push of a button, my leg rested on his hip, pushing him closer to me. Suddenly, Sebastian turned onto his back with me in his arms so that I was sitting on top of him, my knees pressed into the mattress on either side of his hips. Sebastian's large hands rested on my thighs, and he looked at me, waiting, his cheeks flushed. I smiled flirtatiously at him and took off my top extra slowly without taking my eyes off him. The hazel eyes darkened, and Sebastian licked his lips as he watched me. We maintained eye contact as I threw the fabric on the floor. Sebastian's gaze moved from my face down to my breasts, which were still sitting nicely in their cups. Knowing it would drive him crazy, I guided his hands down my thighs to my hips, winking at him as I left them there. Then I leaned over to kiss him and felt his erection rubbing against my crotch through our pants. Heat pooled in my lower abdomen, and I wanted more. Sebastian's fingers dug into my skin as I slipped my tongue into his mouth. He moaned into the kiss, and I pressed my hips harder against his. "Damn, Y/N," Sebastian gasped against my lips. "You're really not making it easy for me, mo gràdh. I'd love to rip the rest of your clothes off and make you sing." You're so hot, Y/N. I would love to fuck you right now, Leander's words echoed through my head. My body immediately stiffened, and Sebastian's face immediately became serious. "What's up? "Did I say something wrong?" he asked worriedly. "No," I said in a shaky voice. "It's just..." Tears gathered in my eyes and rolled down my cheeks. I looked away in shame. Sebastian sat up and wiped the tears from my face. "Hey, everything's fine! Look at me!" I turned my blurry gaze back to him and sniffled. "I'm screwing everything up," I sobbed. "It's not your fault, Y/N." Sebastian took my face in his hands and stroked my cheeks with his thumbs. "But Leander's. It's not your fault, okay?" I just nodded. "Good." Sebastian placed a kiss on my forehead. "Maybe we should take it a little slower. I hate seeing you like this, and I don't want to keep reminding you of that asshole." "No," I blurted out. "I want to keep trying." Sebastian leaned his forehead against mine. "You're so brave, mo leannan." He kissed the tip of my nose. "So bold. A true Gryffindor." He gently pressed his lips to mine for a brief moment, and I became calmer again. I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face in his shoulder. Sebastian returned my hug and hugged me tightly. We enjoyed each other's warmth for a moment, and I let Sebastian's scent envelope me. My eyelids were starting to close. Yawning, I pulled away from the hug and blinked tiredly at Sebastian. "I guess it's time for bed," I murmured. Laughing softly, the Slytherin brushed a thick strand of hair out of my face. "I think so, too."