Positions

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Trigger Warning: Suicide

Hmmm turn right, no no I'm a mother there.
How about left? No I got family there
Up?
Friends
Down?
Best friend
Counterclockwise
Now you're just being funny
You know I got associates and my sorority sisturs there
You're right.
Well um...I don't know how we can get you to be free again.
Alcoholic drinks. That's my freedom.
Right. That.
Master, why do you drink?
So I can be free
But you have people who love and care for you.
I know.
Yet you feel
Incomplete
That's because I do.
Hm?
How about clock positions?
3am
Sleep.
6am
Getting to work.
9a
Work
3pm
Work
6pm
Going to bed
9pm.
Sleep
How about the double triple 12s?
I am sleep at midnight
Lunch at noon
Midnight back into thinking land.
Your gf broke up with you.
Yes I know.
Is that a slot to help set you free?
Nope.
I don't want to be stuck here.
I know.
Positions positions...
I know through the hole!
Sure if you want to die
Out of that hole is my freedom of killing myself before turning 30.
Sooooo we're stuck here.
Yup!
Is that you...
Yup!
Hm ok.….
But you want to be free?
Yes and no.
Come again?
I want a break. Not to be free. 
I want her back. Not to be free.
I love what I do, who I am. I don't want to be free.
I just need a break.
But position
Yup!
Superman
Nope!
Wonder woman!
Nope..
So what are you
The lighthouse and these people are my sirens.
Make sense since you are drawn to them.
Mhm
Master?
Yes brain and heart?
Why do we rule you but you don't rule us?
I'm broken and damaged
Y'all are not.
So positions
Gives me purpose
But feeling empty
Makes me stay here on earth just for a little bit longer.
Positions positions.
Positions, turn right.

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