I'm dead inside.
I always have been.
I saw the light a few times but never went in.
Instead I stay in the dark cave until it's time for me to come back to reality.
Death knocking at my door.
Twice it went unanswered.
Almost got ran over.
Hospital visit because of poison in my system.
Yet I had survived
The question is why.
I see myself on the cold table.
The table my body should had remain stable.
I cried and cried.
Because why am I alive?
Life is rough out here.
I am barely enough.
I wish I could just end it.
But now the road is tough.
I keep thinking about my kiddos.
My trio.
The ones who I hold dear.
I must stay for them.
But o how I am on this clift.
It won't take much.
A gentle breeze.
Then I'm gone.
Death comes..
He takes away.
I may be towards the finish line.
But I know that I want to finish early.
It's just a dream
I do it all over again.
Because I want to die.
Be me again.
The one who doesn't get to deal with life.
But faces death anyways.
I will miss my circle
The cat who visit me when he or she is hungry.
I will miss my friends and associates.
But I can't no longer stand.
My position will be fulfilled.
I can be with my brother again.
I'm sorry my love.
I wanted a future with you.
Please forgive me.
As I bid thee ado.
I will always l love you.
