a glimmer of hope

13.

Season 4 x 12 (continued)
(context: after season 4 but before season 5)

i rolled over in my bed, waking up to the sound of someone knocking on the front door.
it was fucking six in the morning.
i closed my eyes, letting out a sigh.
there was another set of knocks.
"you should probably get that" quinn whispered
"i will" i mumbled, lifting the sheets off of me.
i got out from my bed and grabbed my robe, wrapping it around my body.
then, i tiptoed down the stairs. a chill swept my body since it was so cold in the house.
i opened the door, rubbing my eyes.
"cassandra" ben smiled, he looked eager to see me.
i tilted my head "what're you doing here?"
"sorry, did i wake you?"
"kinda" i shrugged
i pointed behind me "i was just about to get in the shower"
"you're usually up earlier"
"yeah, well"
"accidentally slept in"
"need a ride?" he shrugged
"that would be nice"
"but, i still need to get ready and i'll probably make you late to work"
"yeah, you're probably right" he nodded
"i'll see you, cassandra"
"bye"
i closed the door, closing my eyes.
then, went back up the stairs.
quinn stood in the room, shirtless, putting on his belt.
he raised his eyebrows "that is one needy man"
"i know" i nodded, embarrassed of what just happened.
"you're going to work?" i asked
"yeah, i'm headed back to syria soon"
i widened my eyes "what?"
"yeah, another mission" he shrugged
"i don't know the details or when i'm going yet, i just know it's soon"
"it sounded like you almost fucking died"
"but i didn't, life goes on"
"i never do"
i tilted my head
"what?" he whispered
"nothing"
"no strings attached" i shrugged
"isn't that what you want?"
"i don't know" i smiled
"every time you leave i hope for the day you'll come back"
"fuck" he sighed, moving closer toward me
i pressed my lips into his and once we separated, i wrapped my arms around quinn's bare torso, he held onto my waist.