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Chapter 5

I woke up to find Liam standing in front of me.smirking.

I froze. I can't move.

Why cant I move.

He smirked even more to see me struggle.

A Tear rolled down my cheek. No I can't cry. I dont want to cry. It will make him happy. I cant cry. I wont look weak. even though you are.

Shut up.

I m not weak. I wont cry.

"What happened sarah? Cant move?"he said laughing like a demon.

Oh no!!why cant I move?

I tried to say something but my mouth wouldn't open. I want to say something. I want to scream. I want to kill myself for being such a pussy.
I hate myself for being so pathetic.

"I told you, I wont live you like this. I wouldn't miss any chance to make you miserable." He said still smirking and sat on top of me. He moved his hands near my throat. He is choking me.

I can't breath. I m gonna die any second.

God should hv atleast given me a good death.

But all I got is choking.

Maybe I deserved this type of life.

Maybe I did something wrong in my past life.

I closed my eyes to recall my parents who were not very nice to me. They were like hell but still I love them. It doesn't matter how much they regret me but still I can never really hate them. I can't hate anyone.

Chloe. She says, I m ridiculous. I m pathetic, worthless and ugly. And god knows what not.

But maybe she is right

Maybe I am pathetic.

Maybe I m worthless.

That's why I dont hv any friends.

Noah also left for same reasons I guess. He didn't wanted to be friends with someone so worthless like me.

Chloe must be wrong but not everyone.

I m pathetic.

And it's for the best that I die.

I should hate Liam for killing me but truly I m thankful that he is killing me.

Wait Liam. Why cant I feel the pain anymore?

Did Liam stopped?

Oh no pls kill me.

I opened my eyes to find Liam gone.

Another fucking nightmare.

Wow.

What the actual f-

I really thought I could finally be free.

Why!!

It's not like I have not tried to die. I did. A lot of times. But maybe I am made to suffer.

That's why I survived.

8 attempt of suicide.

But the best part is no one knows.

No one sees the marks on my hand.

No one ever ever nothing any of my scars.

No one ever tried to look at me. To check if I m okay.

Everyone says being okay is not okay.
But do you ever wonder if I m even okay?
No,coz you are so pathetic to care of.

Yeah you are right. I m so pathetic to be cared.

Only Noah knew about my feelings.
Only Noah used to understand if I m faking my smile or hiding the truth of being miserable.

But as usual he left too.

He said he would be in touch.

But I knew.

I knew that I was the only damn reason he left.

He used to feel sympathy for me.

But he was tired of my shit.

He was tired of my pathetic sulking ass.

Why cant I just die.

Why cant I just fade away.

No one needs me.

Then why m I even alive.

Everyone will be happy if I die.

Maybe I should.

Maybe I should try once more.

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Hey!!!
So?
What do you guys think about this chapter?.........I knew you would love it...hehe...hope so.

Anyways, I tricked you guys on that one....sorry not sorry...hehe

So,
What do you think
who is Noah?
And who is liam?
Is it going to be love triangle or hate triangle?
(If something like hate triangle is a thing*)
Or what if nor love neither hate?
Or is sarah going to suicide?

Trust me you gonna love the story more as it continues 😁

Anyways, byee!!!

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