Forever Now | Tom Kaulitz

Chapter 26

This chapter contains heavy topics!

"Hopefully Tom realizes his dumbass mistake and comes back here" Bill says sighing, "I have no idea why he is acting so tough when I was sobbing about you and the babies leaving".

"Why the fuck would he cheat on me in the first place." I say angrily.

Dario grabs my shoulder and tries to calm me down, "Hes not worth all this trouble".

"And you are?!" I snap, making my babies cry. "Fuck Dario I'm so sorry." I sigh.

I hold Kent bouncing him. "Shh, Shh, Shh." I shush the baby to calm him down. Bill does the same calming Lia.

"Kiva! Komm Hier!" I hear a loud voice boom from behind us. I hear my dog scurrying up to me. I crouch down with Kent as he cried, holding my dog tightly. Tom and Ria run up to us.

"Give my boyfriend his dog back." Ria stomps. Ohhh I still had my glasses as hat on. I switch kent over to my left arm.

"Give me my dog." Tom says as I hear Bill laugh behind me.

"How do you not notice your own fucking kids... Weird how your dogs can but you cant." I scoff. I shooting pain goes through my right cheek. Ria just fucking slapped me while Kent was in my arms. I turn around handing my son to Dario as he started to cry.

"Theres no fucking way." I yell, "How dare you hit me while my son is in my arms!".

Anger fueled through me as I took my hat and sunglasses off, glaring at her.

"Tom heres your choice, Me and our kids or Ria. Not both." I scoff.

He sighs looking at Ria.

"Tom Kaulitz-Trümper I swear to god if you dont pick Ella I am never talking to you again." Bill scoffs. Tom grabs the dog from Ria as they walk away.

Tears ran down my face as Tom left with Ria. I was beyond upset. I walked quickly after Tom, spinning him around with his shoulder as I slapped him in the face. 

I walk back to Bill, Dario, my kids, and my dog.
I really was ruined, Tom ruined me.

"I can drive you both home..." Bill says while a tear slipped down his face. I really couldn't bear this life, this one moment in time just brought up emotions that I have been able to bury.

I got out of the car sobbing while I held my twins. Dario hugged me goodbye with a sorrowful look in his eyes.

-3 hours later-

The clock was going so slow, everything was fuzzy. I was living in my own as I drank my sorrows away. I pick up my phone dialing Bill.

Laughs erupt from my chest as he answers. "Come have Tom pick the twins up" I laugh as I try not to slur my words.

He hangs up as I look through my grandmas medicine cabinet, I should've done this years ago. I grab the bottle of oxycodone as I down a few pills dry.

Oh my god, what have I done?? I sob trying to throw up the pills I just swallowed. A knock at the door can be heard as I run downstairs. I open it to find Tom.

"Tom, help me." I sob to him.

"Whats going on?? Are the kids okay?" He asks me.

"Tom don't get mad Im a little drunk and I just swallowed some pills," I say while my body gets hit with a huge wave of slow-motion. I felt my breathing slow down as I felt Tom pick me up to find a bathroom.
He shoves his fingers far down my throat getting me to throw up everything I ate that day. My vision started blurring in and out, my hands became clammy, and tears streamed down my face.