Be Mine

chapter 28

Paari paari honthon pe na jaane kaise
Dhaani dhaani muskurahaton ke phool khilne lage, mann hi mann

Khaari khaari hatheliyon pe jaane kaise
Pyaari pyaari rangreliyon ki dhoop sajne lagi, tan badan
Hui main teri joganiya joganiya
Tu jogi teri joganiyan main joganiyan

Ab chaahe mohe rang lagaa
Piya ji mohe ang lagaa
Hui main teri joganiya joganiya
Tu jogi teri joganiyan main joganiyan.

He lay down beside me after deciding he likes me too much like this, covered in his release.

He gently kissed my forehead.

"Ivaan."

I whisper.

He looked down at me gazing at my eyes.

"Yes, love."

"I love you."

His eyes widen along with mine and he just stare at me shocked, why did this feels like a rejection. I hides my face in his chest just so he couldn't see my welled up eyes. His heart is beating as fast as mine. I try to pull out of his embrace only for him to tightened his hold around me. His breathing is erratic. I wiggle out of his arms and put up a best fake smile I could.

"I'll just go and shower."

And without waiting for his answer i take off to hide myself in the bathroom. I enter the bathroom and lock the door and move to stand beneath the shower allowing the hot water to wash away my humiliation of his rejection. Washing away my tears.
Did I ruin everything?
Was he pretending everything I saw in his eyes?
That affection, that care, that love.
I spend a good amount of time under the hot shower until my skin is red and raw. I don't know why but I like to take bath a extra hot water than normal.
I was still in the shower when the knock came.

"Sweetheart, you're in there for so long, please open the door."

"I'm good, Mr. Oberoi."

"Why did you lock the door? Open up. Please."

I took a deep breath, wrap the towel around myself and unlock the door. He was sitting on the bed with his head in his hands.

"I'm sorry"

I smile with a hollowness in my heart, standing between his open legs and took him in my arms, squeezing him tight.

"I'm sorry, Fuck, I froze up. I'm so sorry."

"Shhh... I know."

I slowly rub my hand up and down his back and massaging his head.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so so sorry." He squeezed me tightly.

"Shhhh...it's okay, Mr. Oberoi."

He stand and kisses the side of my face, my neck, the spot behind my ear and I draw in a shaky breath.

I distangled myself and cups his face.

"It's okay. I tell you because I wanted you to know that not because I expect you to reciprocate those feelings. I know what you told me and I'll keep that in my mind and won't ever force you to do something you don't want to do. I just wanted you to know that I love you"

"I adore you, Inara."

I smile and raise my tiptoes and try to kiss his forehead but he's so tall.
I notice him roll his lips trying to contain his laugh.
I huffed.

"Will you mind bending a little?"

He smiles and bends a little so I can reach his forehead. I cup his face, close my eyes and press a chaste kiss on his forehead and we stay like this with my lips pressed against his forehead for a few more seconds and when I withdraw I saw his face, his eyes closed, his long lashes fanning over his cheeks. I gently press kisses to his closed eyes. He opens his eyes and undo my towel, resulting in it dropping to my feet. He wraps his arms around me and gently lowers me.

"Are you sore?"

"A little."

He kissed my neck.

"I'll be gentle."

I moan as he trail kisses all over my body and gently pushes in not for one second stopped kissing me and for the time I forgot his rejection and focus on him and only him.

We both moan in unison and he settled fully inside me.

"I'm sorry."

He start thrusting in and out at a softer pace and it didn't feel like he was fucking me, it feels like.........it feels like he's making love to me.

I wrap my hands around his neck and he hides his face in the crook of my neck, and I kisses his neck, marking him.

"Fuck, baby. You feel so good wrapped around me. So fucking wet, so fucking tight."

He keeps his pace thrusting in and out of me and rubs my clit faster and harder while sucking my nipples. He squeezed my breasts and a loud moan slips past my lips.

"Ivaan....mmm."

"That's it baby. Come for me."

"More please."

He presses his thumb harder rubbing my sensitive clit.

"More what, baby?"

"Please Mr. Oberoi. I'm so close."

He increases his pace thrusting harder and harder with each thrust and we fall apart together with a loud moan.

"Let me clean you up."

And instead of getting up he kneels between my open thighs, he pushes his release inside and i arch my back at the pressure. He then press his tongue flat on my clit, sucking harder.

"I can't, Mr. Oberoi. Fuck"

"You can, baby. You can. Just one more, please."

He said between eating, nibbling and sucking me and pressing my lower abdomen building my release again.
I didn't think I could come anymore but he proved me wrong.

After eating me like I'm his last meal he gathered me in his arms and kissed me and i taste us on his tongue.

"We taste so good together."

All of sudden he ask.

"Did I win?"

"Huh?"

"I mean did I treat you better than your past."

I smile and hides my face in his chest and he tightened his hold on me and after sometime I feel his breathing even out. And from that i know he fell asleep but sleep is far from me. All I can think about is his words.

I adore you.

I know he said he'll never be able to love me, but will he even try?
Is it me?
Am I unlovable?
Am I unworthy of his love?
I know I'm not enough for him but I can't help but hope that someday he'll fall for me the way I've already fallen for him.

Why the fuck did I need to tell him that I love him even after knowing I'll never be able to make him love me?

Why the fuck did I always ruin everything?

I cuddled him and  fell asleep with all these dark thoughts running in my mind