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I always was kind and am a friend people could count on
And that was my mistake.
She took me for granted and ignored me whenever I tried to start a conversation with her.
I was okay with it
I stood there in silence, pieces of me fading slowly.
Then she got rejected by her crush.
I tried to lighten the mood, but she instead yelled at me for being insensitive.
She didn't tell me anything and expected me to sympathize when I never knew the full story
I was okay with it.
I was patient, more pieces fading.
Later, her and that same friend were talking about her new crush.
They later were telling me that her crush, whom I had no clue about, that he might like her back.
They didn't even notice me being left out.
I was okay with it.
I was quiet, even more pieces fading.
Soon it was our spring break.
She promised to text me.
But she didn't
She only texted another friend.
I was okay with it.
I was calm, losing myself even more in the darkness of despair and madness
She got rejected again by another crush.
She was now being ridiculous.
I wanted to talk to her about a fanfiction I had read but she shut me down.
That's what made me snap
"Oh so you don't want to talk to me, okay" I said to her, walking out of the classroom, the heat of rage and the bitter cold of loneliness clashing inside me.
She then came after me along with the same friend she had been stuck to by the hip the past few months.
She apologized and said she wasn't in a good mood
I know it was genuine but she hurt me too much
So I simply told her to leave me alone, my rage eventually winning the battle.
I didn't want my feelings hurt even more so I lessened talking to her
But then others tried to intervene
Which made me even more keen to avoid that topic
I wanted to curl up and cry but at the same time throw things at a wall
My soul was filled with turmoil, guilt and rage colliding.
But she hurt me.
And I don't know if I can forgive or forget
And that's scary
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So this was a mini story/vent but kudos to you if you read it.
how was it?
-Sara
