I won't wait around while you make up your mind

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𝐋𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰, 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐢 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲 𝐨𝐫 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐢 𝐠𝐨?

𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐮𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡

𝐒𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧, 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐝

𝐈 𝐰𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐚𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝

𝐂𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐠𝐨

𝐖𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐠𝐨

𝐖𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐠𝐨

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Eddie

I honestly don't even know where I stand in my quarter-life bisexual crisis.

Wait if I'm bisexual, am I sinning Shannon?

"Chris, wait up. I gotta get your saddle and brush," Chris' adaptive horse therapy trainer says to him while I'm distracted by my phone. 

"Dad, I get to ride Lucky today. He has a scar on his leg from surgery like I do." Chris walks over to a stall and uses his crutches to stabilize himself against the barn door.

"Hmm. That's so cool, Chris." I follow my son to the stables.

A minute later, my phone vibrates in my pants pocket.

I turned the ringer off since I'm with Chris on my off day.

Who could need me on Saturday?

I watch the trainer show Chris how to feed the horse while I take my phone out and see who is trying to contact me.

Buck: Hey, do you have time to talk? I want to apologize in person and talk about a few other things like that art summer camp. I also just finished with my apology meeting with Cap. I know it's your off day too.

Oh, I don't know if I'm ready to face Buck again. I saw him last weekend at Cap's birthday and it was sorta awkward silence between us. I see him at work every day but I'm out on calls and he does desk work. And I can now, understand why he's angry at Cap and hit me with his crutch on the first day back. But he's not the Buck I loved before the accident anymore.

He's jealous Buck.

He's a guy who wants attention.

He's a guy who doesn't understand my panic attacks.

And he's a single dad who I can't date because of work HR, my late-wife Shannon who I was married to, and because I'm still figuring out all this bisexual coming out stuff. 

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