♤SPRING SHIELD (MxM) ~fantasy~♤

Dive in,then

Elijah

The woman who was working the lobby of Kristian's old apartment complex taught me something. She taught me that she could see that I had something in my heart meant just for him. That I personally moved things around just for him.
That I like him. A lot.
And yes,I'm afraid. I'm scared of us,the idea of it,putting it into action and doing it. But I want this more than I'm terrified of it. And I'll try as much as I can to like him. To do this. Baby steps.
"Is it safe for them to dive into the water?"Kristian comes back from the corner,his hair wet and sticking to his forehead. His legs are fully in the water,and his clothes are completely soaked as he trudges himself from the water,
"Yes,it is. They do that each time we come here."I explain,unpacking my fishing gear as I crane my neck to search for the source of the sound of laughter and excited screams. The splashing tells me they're still alive at the very least,
Without asking anymore questions,Kristian takes off his shirt and pulls it over his head. Curling the wet piece of fabric and ringing it dry. His torso is... delicate. The skin is clearly soft,the colour is gentle and everything in that area looks like it's meant to be held. Especially his waist,it's almost begging to be embraced.
"Careful,Lewis. You're staring,"he teases,walking closer to me on the dock. I ignore him,and get back to preparing to fish. From the corner of my eye I see him placing his arms on the raised surface,"Why don't you come in the lake? Let me stare at you too,"He wiggles his damn eyebrows at me and my cheeks warm,
"I'm good up here,I have to make sure you guys have something for dinner."
"Fish. You like white meat,don't you?"
"It's versatile."I shrug,getting the bait onto the hook,
"Just like you. What was that in the room back there?"his eyes squint at me,and I lift my shoulders then drop them,
"Someone told me something."I mumble,getting ready to sit in my chair and wait patiently for dinner,
"And you're not afraid anymore?"he tilts his head at me. It's adorable how badly he wants confirmation,
"I've never felt the way I do with you with anyone before. I'm afraid of the consequences but I am much more afraid of what happens if I'm not with you. I'll learn to be comfortable with us. To be comfortable with being yours,Kristian. I promise."his cheeks get a little redder at my comment,he gestures for me to come closer. I roll my eyes but come closer anyway,
"Can you promise me one more thing,Lewis?"he whispers as I close the distance between the both of us,
"So long as it's reasonable,which I doubt by the way you're smiling at me."I raise a brow and he lifts his hand up to hold mine,
"Can you stop calling me Kristian?"he asks,batting his eyelashes my way,I lean in until my forehead has bumped up with his,
"What would you rather I call you?"
"... what you used to."
"I'm sorry what was that?"I tease,
"The name- can you stop making fun of me?"
"Okay,okay. I'll stop making fun of you,Red."it's been a while since I called him that and they way his face lights up when I do makes my heart skip at least two beats. He's not good for my health,like at all.
The air thickens when his eyes dive to my lips as he licks his own. There's almost warmth coming from his gaze as he searches my face. Without thinking about we both close all the space between us until my nose is brushing his. I try to remind myself of what his lips tasted like on mine.
Candy. Some sort of fruit candy.
The memory isn't enough for me to be satisfied when I have him right where I want him. Right,in front of me. Begging me to dive in. His siren song has never sounded this good because today,I don't care. Today I'll do exactly what I want to and no one can stop me.
I place my lips on his and it starts with just the contact,the feeling of being so close and within mere seconds I want more. I need more. I pull his face closer to mine with my hand brushing on the tender skin on his cheek while he bunches my shirt into his fist and forces me closer with a simple tug.
It feels gentle. Innocent and loving. Before we deepen it and its just pure desire. Pent up temptation,each kiss makes we want more and more- I don't want to stop. I can do this for Lyria knows how long but we do stop. For air. Also because one of the boys is shouting Kristian's name at the top of his lungs.
"Red."I warn between Kristian's kisses. My voice sounds so hoarse I almost can't recognise it. "Red,I think they need you over there."I put my hands on his face so he can't force his way to me,
He makes a displeased sound that makes my heart squeeze. He's adorable.  "Being their favourite person does come with disadvantages."I say and he nods,
"Clearly,I'll be back-"he plants a kiss on my cheek"For you."
"We'll see."when I say that he gets back in the water making his way back to the children waving towards him. I really want him to come back and get me.

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We ended up not spending the night at the lake house. I got a call and I have to go to work tomorrow,on a Sunday. I can complain all I want but I chose this life.
I just get a little angry with myself and the world when I have to drive on the rough road in the middle of the night. The fish we were supposed to eat for dinner in a cooler in the back of the car. Who knows if it'll still be alright to eat when we get there. When my children are going to wake up with stiff necks from sleeping in the car tomorrow.
"Penny for your thoughts?"Kristian asks me from the passenger seat. His voice startling me,I thought he was asleep,
"I'm sorry to tell you this but with the state of your bank account- you need that penny."I tell him and he scoffs before glaring at me,his brow eyes blazing. I can almost feel it when he's about to verbally attack me,see it coming. And I love it so much that I can't stop instigate it,
"So you think because you got a lake house as part of your inheritance you can say that? My bank account is just fine,thank you."
"I'm sure,I'm sure."I tease and he pretends to smack my shoulder and I don't flinch,
"Does it not hurt when I smack you-"he pinches my bicep before his hand slides down. I spare a split second off the road and face him. His features are practically being kissed by the faint glow of the night life.
"No,because you don't have any intention to hurt me in the first place."
"That's true... maybe I should just start actually smacking you,"before I can tell him that's not in his best interest he takes my hand in his and leads it to his upper thigh. He's wearing shorts so if I wanted to... I could have my hand touching his skin. Nothing  between us.
But I'm a gentleman and my children are in the back of my car. So I keep my hand where he put it.
But I think about what he would do if I did want I wanted at night.