♤SPRING SHIELD (MxM) ~fantasy~♤

We can't do this anymore

Kristian

"You can't defend yourself despite everything I'm saying. You can't even tell me I'm lying."he pauses as he gasps for air,"Have you always known?"the question stings me. And I stand straighter,shaking my head desperately.
"No,"he shakes his head back at me as my throat starts to lock up with the tears I know I'll cry. "It's only been two weeks-"
"Two weeks too long!"he snaps,"You get to stumble upon it. But I've been looking for you for years,searching for answers. And now you tell me it's just two weeks? Do you even know who you are to me?"
I can't hold back anymore as I start to shake. Holding my hands to my face.
"For so damn long,I hated the man who never told me that he was carrying my children. The heirs to my throne. For so long,I hated the man who threw my life upside down,who gave birth to my boys then left them there for dead. The man who abandoned them."the conviction in his voice is enough to burn someone.
It's burning me.
"I didn't know who you were-"I don't know why I'm trying,
"I can't listen to you right now."
"Elijah-"
"Don't you say my name when you lied to me every single day. I'd ask you,are you okay? Over and over and every time you looked at me and said you were fine. You lied,you lied to me so badly that- Kristian,seven years ago on this exact month you ruined me. You ruined my life. And now you're back and you're doing it again."
I start to sob the more he talks. The more I watch everything fall right in front of me. I don't even have the liberty of apologising,"Right under my nose you manage to do it all over again. Like it's so simple."his anger makes whatever growth that was on the walls of his house fog against the window.
Moss growing inches thick. Covering us from light. Plunging us into darkness.
The anger of a man whose akin to a god.
"We can't do this anymore,"he says after a long breath,"Don't come to work on Monday. Or the day after that,for all I care take as much time as you want but I don't want to see you-"my lip starts to quiver. As much as I try to hide it.
"Dad? What's going on?"both Liam and Oliver are in the hall staring at us. One of them has no idea what's going on.
And the other looks at the notebook on the floor and understands it all. Looking between his father and me. Full of fear. Before anyone can say anything else I race off.

Elijah

I watch as Kristian runs down the hall opening the door to the guest room and disappearing behind it.
Their eyes follow him then look back at me. Liam stomps his foot onto the floor,"What's going on?"he demands,his brows furrowed.
"Kristian is leaving."I mutter when he grabs my hand,trying to force me. I watch carefully as Oliver picks up his notebook and holds it up to his chest. His lips quivering in the same manner his did.
The same manner he had no right doing after everything.
I can't unsee it now.
"Why?"Liam cries,growing impatient. He's never been one to be satisfied by a one word answer. Before I can think to make up some ridiculous lie about where Kristian is going,Kristian bursts out of his room with a bag in his hands racing down the stairs. So quickly that one can even call out to him.
Oliver starts to cry and I stare at him before going to pick him up. But when he sees my open arms he runs away. Accompanied by his less than silent weeping. Liam also humphs and leaves and I'm left. Floating in that dark hallway alone.
The path of loneliness starts all over again.

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Monday

"So,that should be all for today's meeting."I say,rubbing my fingers over my eyes. I haven't slept since the day Kristian left.
A part of me sighed in relief when he didn't show up today at work. Another part,as twisted as it is wanted him to come despite the consequences.
When I realise that my outstretched hand is not getting relieved of the briefing. I look to my side and find that it's empty.
There's no smiling man to take it from me so I can get up.
The file falls back into my lap and I stare ahead,everyone looking at me with confused faces. I'd feel embarrassed if I wasn't completely numbed already. Slouching,with no intention of getting up soon,I make a face.
"He's on leave?"one of the board members ask. I nod my head hesitantly even though I know. I know that he'll might never be coming back and if he ever does,it will never be the same. "It's always hard for me when Rachel goes on leave. It's like learning how to live again."
I think about that statement. Am I... learning how to live again?
I didn't need Kristian to breath. But he made it easier.
I didn't need him to sleep. But he made it easier.
I didn't need him at all to live but he just made life all more simple. Now it's not.
"...right."I say,groaning as I get up.
I'm not letting him have that power over me.