My Kitchen Sink

Shells

There's a knife behind my shoulderblade

And even though your hand is quivering

And your breath is shaking

The knife does not retreat

So I walk into your arms yet again

No matter how toxic I believe you to be

I do not have the option to let go

I will always be the one hurting more

Because if I stay or if I go either way you're killing me

Don't tell me this is the way it works

This is not a relationship

This is mutual violence

We're too pathetic to self-destruct

So we continuously dismantle one another

And I've decided I'd rather be weak, than in pieces

But you've decided that's not what you want

So we stay together

Two shells fighting for the upper hand

When they're both at rock bottom

And we'll keep throwing knives back and forth

In hopes that maybe we'll finally hit the right slice of skin

And the darkness can finally creep in