Guiding, Guiding, Pushing

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I feel a slight amount of pressure
It's your hand on the small of my back
You were pushing me forward
Gentler
Pushing me forward
Pushing me down a pathway you chose guiding me through this hell we call heaven

But then your hand left my back
I stopped pushing
Without you there to guide me
Not knowing what's right or wrong
I stopped moving

I've had numerous hands in the same place since
But none of them left your mark
I feel like a cow that's been branded
And I'm worthless
if I'm not worth it for you

Because without your hand on the small of my back
I have never felt so small
I am shrinking within myself
You made me bigger than this
But you were bigger than me
You took your hand off too early
Like a child first riding a bike
I fell
I had no motivation to get back on
I took my skinned knees and searched for others
But I want no other than you

And you've left me cold alone
I'm still your shell to love
But instead of guiding you shoved
And I fell to the ground
And you walked away
So I'm lying here dying

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