It's complicated

Chapter 13

Emily's POV

I open the door slightly and no, just no. I can't let anyone else see this so I close and lock the door behind me, this can't be the last memory they have of him. The shout at me through the door but I ignore just sitting beside JJ will h our backs pressed against the wall gives me the chills.

"J?" I say in a shaky tone

"I- I... I *sobs* "

"JJ whatever you think, this did not happen because of you. Don't you ever think that" I say strongly

"But? No, this isn't how its supposed to go Em. I shouldn't have gone out like this. I shouldn't"

"I know"

"GUYS JUST GIVE US A MINUTE YOU CANT COME IN HERE" I yell to the door

I let myself out and start explaining "and that's when he... He- He hung
.. Himself" I finally blurt out

Garcia drops to the floor in cries and sobs, Hotchs tears just can't stop running down his face, Rossi with blood shot eyes just starts to curse under his breath. And that leaves Spencer, Spencer just walks off. To the side of the wall and round the corner, I follow him and see him
He's not doing what I think he's doing

"REID STOP THAT ISNT THE ANSWER" I yell as I run to him

"YOU DONT KNOW ME EMILY NO ONE KNOWS ME AND HOW I DEAL WITH THINGS JUST LEAVE IT ALONE!" He yells back with a shaky needle and his sleeve rolled up

"SPENCER STOP WITH ALL THIS, THAT WONT WORK IT NEVER DOES IT JUST GETS YOU HOOKED AGAIN!" I yell

"ITS ALL I CAN THINK TO DO RIGHT NOW. IT EASES THE PAIN" He shouts even though I'm there next to him

I snatch the dialudid out his hand and stomp on it. He walks away grumpily

"Where are you going?"

"Where you aren't!" He says

And with that, he was off. Off to someplace nobody knew and we didn't know when he was going to return.