Mute

Chapter Fourteen

AN: Picture of Alex I noticed that the other one erased somehow. I hope you like it.

We were sitting side by side on the bleachers. I was just thinking and staring up at the sky trying to see what shapes the clouds were and Jake was looking through my backpack I really didn't care it's not like I had anything to hide. "Hey what is this? I didn't know you wrote songs," he said. I looked over and saw that he had my song book it is were I have all the songs I write mostly when I am depressed or I finally have something to be happy about.

I leaned over to see which song he was looking at and saw that it was the first one I wrote a couple of years after my mom left. It went something like this:

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again (right again)
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand (you don't understand)

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

"Wow this is really good. What made you want to write this?" I took a notebook out of my backpack and wrote, "After my mom left I tried making my dad proud of me and that maybe the pain of loosing my mother would lessen a bit, so I did what ever I could. I did all of my chores without complaining and doing all of my homework to get good grades but whatever I did he was never proud of me. The harder I tried the more disappointed I became, and the beating got worse so I just stopped trying for him and now I'm just working hard for me and for my mother because I knew that she would like that I have a good education. I wrote that song as a way to express my feelings and to not keep it all bottled up inside." I handed it to him when he was done he said, "Don't bother with him just do what you want to do and what your mother would like your father doesn't matter not after all he has done to you."

I hugged him I don't know why but it felt like the write thing to do. He seemed surprise but he still hugged me back. We pulled apart as soon as the bell rang we down and headed to our next class which was math.

I'm sorry it's really short, but I was listening to this song, and it expired me to write this chapter. I have been have a hard time thinking what to write next and with school and also to apply to colleges I'm really busy. Updates might be slow until December where things will slow down a bit and I could right more.

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Peace,
Yulie <3