Jealousy

Chapter 1

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(SONG FOR THIS CHAPTER: Don't Let me Down by Daya)

I thought about my worst feelings, making me get up from my bed walking into the bathroom opening the 6th drawer and seeing the silver razor.

The feeling when you feel like the walls of darkness enveloping you and suffocating you to no bounds. It's like you are trapped in a medium where you can't breathe and you gasp for air and plead for someone to pull you out of this dilemma. It is the worst feeling, one can ever experience as you are drowned in your own sorrow for whatever your personal reasons might be.

It's like being underwater. It's something heavy and suffocating and you're trying and trying and trying to tread for the surface because that glimmer of light is just there.

I cleared my throat closing the toilet seat, and sat down and clicked open the razor so the sharp pointed out.

As I pulled up one of my white sleeves, tears sled down my cheeks as I cut three lines on my skin already. I collapsed to the floor. Groaning and screaming with anguish, I writhed about on the floor, clutching my body. My eyes were watery with the sheer pain and my breathing came out in sharp, shallow rasps. Sweat dripped down the side of my face and covered my forehead in a thin sheen.

"H-help," I croaked, my desperate tone made my words almost inaudible, but they still echoed around the eerie, empty hall. I couldn't breath, it felt as if someone was choking me. My heart was racing and all I wanted to do was curl up into a ball and wait for someone to save me. But no one would, no one was there. A choked cry for help forced itself up my throat, and I felt a drop run down my cheek. It seemed as if this was the end of the road for me.

"Hello? Daisy are you here? You left your door open..."

I heard my boyfriends familiar voice chirp through my house that made my heart race even faster. How could I leave the door unlock?

Luke's voice was hard to describe. It was warm and flowing like hot chocolate, and everyone seemed to relax when he had something to say. But as soon as he became angry, the hot chocolate would freeze and his voice would become like ice, cold and hard, and his eyes seconded the notion. When he was sad, it became a cool waterfall in the middle of nowhere, alone and small.

My eyes widened as I dropped my razor making a loud 'klink' noise. Curse my stupid clumsiness.

As I was about to shut my bathroom door, Luke was already standing there with his eyebrows raised and his jaw was dropped.

"Luke I can explain-

"What the fuck?" He slightly yelled furrowing both of his eyebrows.

I gulped as I felt hot like I was heating up in an oven.

"Why are you hurting yourself?" He yelled grabbing the razor throwing it once again angrily.

"I-I.." I stuttered as he let out tears.

"You promised. You said I made you happy. I gave you everything to make you happy."

I stayed silent looking down.

"Huh?!" He yelled waiting for an answer.

"Nothing makes me happy Luke. Not even you." I hesitated too let out my mouth as he shut his mouth immediately letting one tear drip from his red cheeks.

I didn't mean to let that out. I just was so scared, and had so many thoughts. I love Luke. I really do.

Do I?