Jealousy

Chapter 34

Daisys pov.

"You okay?" Daniel and I were in the cabin sitting in the room Calum and I were sharing.

"Y-yeah." I stuttered with a nervous smile, "I'm fine." I had obviously lied.

Im not fine at all. I felt heartbroken, I felt like it was Christmas morning and there were no presents under the tree. I actually thought Daniella liked me as a best friend, or at least a friend and not a fake one who's trying too date my enemy.

"Now you know why I hate Daniella?" He gave me a look of serious, me looking up with a glare.

"Now is not the time." I hissed, him backing up a little taking his hands up in surrender, "Besides.. you still love her though."

"Who said I still like her?" He walked besides me taking a plop on the bed turning his head too me, "I would never like someone who acted fake around too one of my wonderful best friends."

"Thank you Daniel."

A single tear rolled down my cheek.

"What time is it?" I had asked him, he grabbed his phone out of his pocket checking the time clock.

"It's about 8..." He replied, giving me a weak smile as I let out a big sigh.

"Alright." I nodded sadly still staring at the floor, "I guess I better get too bed."

"It's super early though?"

"I don't care Daniel I don't feel in the mood, just let me alone so I can listen too sad music and cry!" I had shouted in a whisper way, shoving him out of my door as he crinkled his forehead in confusion. The only thing I wanted too do was be alone and involve nobody.

"Fine." Daniel sighed, "But just remember that fake friends are like pennies, two- faced and worthless."

I could feel my heart filling with smile, what he had said had affected me a little. What he said was part true, fake friends are just like pennies. They are worthless. Just like Daniella. Maybe Daniel isn't dumb after all. I don't understand how someone can be so two faced. Saying they have really missed you then being an absolute gossip. I would never do it.

It's a crumpling feeling. It's a feeling that makes you desperate for attention, approval, and affection. It makes you feel nauseous. It kills your self esteem, your trust, everything. It's like you're on your first roller coaster; everything's too fast to comprehend, and as you are plunged down that steep hill your stomach lurches into your throat, choking you and making a huge tangle of organs and intestines. And when the ride ends things are a bit clearer, but everything is still dizzy and you are a bit numb. Or, worse, all your nerves are alive as ever and your senses are heightened. You want to go back on the ride again, because maybe next time the ride will be easier on you, and it will be as if it never hurt you.

When you get off a roller coaster, it's as if the whole world is spinning around fast but you are standing still. There are strings holding you down and everybody is watching the one person who can't move. You are vulnerable and you have no idea how to snip the strings and move on.

I was resting on the cot that serves as my nesting place, enjoying the comfort of the soft cool throw and the downy pillow, the dim illumination from the moon through the window was just enough to spark my imagination and get my brain racing with thoughts of Daniella and Calum. Why was I so mad on what she had told Calum, it's like I don't want Calum too listen too her. It's like I'm acting like I like Calum. I don't though.