The Ineffable Love [On Hold]

Chapter 14

12.00 a.m.

I've tried to sleep, but my eyes won't cooperate with me. I blink them repeatedly before I close my lids again but it doesn't work. And I know for sure the reason. Dean. I can't be selfish, not after he has helped me to forget about David. After he has cheered me up. After he has been with me despite the way I treated him. But now he's hurt. I need to fix him, but I don't even know if I could. It seems impossible. I let out a sigh. He has been hurt for God knows how long, and now here I am, trying to help him although it might have been too late. I don't even know if he wants my help because he seems independent enough.

I bite my lips as I recall the incident that happened a few hours ago. The way he told me his life history in an emotionless voice. The way his mom crushed his heart. The way he talked to me dryly. How broken he was. How it haunted his life. The way he showed his hatred towards me. The way he flinched as if he was disgusted when my hand touched his. The way he chased me out of his room.

But first things first. I have to mend our friendship before I do anything else because it's the most important thing at the moment.

I start to contemplate whether I should call him or not to ease my mind.

"Maybe I should," I mutter. I search through my contact and my heart starts to pound rapidly as his pet name comes into my view.

My breath hitches when I press the call button. I wait for a good one minute but there is still no answer from him. In fact, the line goes directly to voicemail. I release a sigh as I try to call him again. For the record, I've been trying to call him 10 freaking times, but he answered none of my calls.

"Fine, maybe a text will do?" I murmur quietly.

Still no reply.