Change (4th)

Chapt. 9: Josiah

"How you been? You getting so grown, got some facial hair coming in." I pulled out my chair and joined my mother at the table. "I been cool ma."

I looked around. "So you been in jail? Josiah i told you..." I cut her off before she could finish her sentence. "Ma it's been three years. I know what you told me but you don't know the life of a boy who lost his father to the hands of his mother, in and out of foster homes. Fighting niggas for disrespecting you." She looked at me like she wanted to say something but kept quiet.

"I have a daughter, I have a girlfriend. I'm living with my sister Jas and I'm working for my brother Jayson." The look on her face when I said Jas and Jayson was unexplainable. "Jas?..... Jayson?" I looked at her long and hard. "Yeah, what about em? Why I never knew them? Dad knew he had other kids." She looked at me worried. "Josiah you wouldn't understand."

I slammed my hand on the table. "I'm not a damn baby ! Why everything is "You wouldn't understand?!" I got a family, I'm making my own money ! Ask about your granddaughter Jah'Nova, ya future daughter in law Diamond. Tell me you proud of me !"

Tears rolled down my mother's face. "How is she? How old is she?" I tapped a beat on the table. "Shes about 8 months old. She was premature, but she's good now." My mother looked at the clock. "You got something better to do than talk to your son?" She shook her head. "No baby, how'd you find out about your siblings?" I chuckled a lil then lifted my hat just to put it back on my head. "Man, yall playing games with me. I've always wanted siblings, you and dad knew this and not one time did you or dad tell me 'Hey Josiah you have an older brother and sister name Jayson and Jasmyne.' That's bullshit and yall know it." My mother looked at the clock again, so I turned around and looked at the clock too. "While you focused on the clock can you tell me why you did it?" Her whole vibe changed." The look in her eyes changed. "Why I did what Maurice?" I shifted in my seat. "You only call me Maurice when I'm in trouble. Why did you kill my father? Why did you take both of yall away from me." She looked around then glared at me. "You won't understand Maurice." I got up and turned my hat to the front. "Fuck it, when you wanna give me some answers let me know when to come back." I made my way out the room. "Josiah....... Josiah wait !..... I love you !!"