Change (4th)

Chapt. 25: Zoe

A part of me miss Jas. But a part of me is happy where Im at, with my family.

Jas and I both know we need to talk. But Im not trying to talk face to face, not ready for that.

Me: Wyd

Jas: Watching TV. You?

Me: Playing the game. You good?

Jas: Yeapp, what you want Zoe?

Jas not stupid man. She know ian texting her to see what she's doing.

Me: Whitney and I gone try to work things out for Ursa. I don't want no beef between us. Im not trying to hurt you on purpose.

Jas: Okay that's cool. Kiss Ursa and Zakai for me.

What the hell?

Me: That's it?

Jas: You texted me this bullshit cause you know if you said it to my face you'd probably be on your way to the hospital right now. But Im not tripping. Im gone tell you this now and make sure you remember it always. When shit don't work out and that bitch not everything you think she is... Don't run your ass back over here.

Me: I love you.

Jas: Bullshit.

Damn. That's how it is now? I can't get no type of love. Jo not fucking with me. My own nephew/son fucking with me.

"You good babe?"

I looked up at Whitney and faked a smile.

"Uhh, yeah. Im good."

She sat on my lap facing me.

"Whit I helped you fill out atleast 10 job apps. Did you call anybody back today?"

She played in my hair.

"I forgot. Ill do it tomorrow."

I shook my head.

"Can't pay these bills on my own. You better make some calls tomorrow."

I pushed her off my lap onto the couch.

"Ill be back later. Going to play ball."

I know its for Ursa but did I make the right decision. Jas was good to me. She held me down, she helped me, she loved me the best way she knew how but... I missed Whitney.

But honestly I think I just missed the sex.

Damn.

Give me another chance I want to be your man
Girl, you got me down here on my knees
Crying, begging pleading
I'll do anything for your love

Would you help me?
Tell me what you want from me
Can you help me?
I don't understand
Girl, I'm just a man