Okay, lets get this out of the way, I'm not dead. My life went down hill (like almost over) in October, and I completely isolated myself from everyone. I haven't been on any social media because I was on suicide watch. I was on so many meds and I felt disgusting like my life depended on them. My dad kept calling me an attention whore and saying that "you keep saying you want to kill yourself but you could never do it!". All of my friends have thus abandoned me because they can't handle the way I am. Another reason I isolated myself was because my friend, Ashley, killed herself in September and I put it on myself. I was up for two strait days because when I tried to sleep, I had these terrible nightmares. All of this caused my grades to drop, and I almost got kicked out of my school. But I think after what, 6 months I'm okay, like genuinely okay.
