The Wrong Side of Right

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"Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to just stay still. Watch everything like it was a movie and I was behind the scenes. I wish I had the ability to rewind moments that I wish I could relive. Go back to the day when we first met and you were wearing so much cologne. I seemed so calm but I wasn't at all. My knees were shaking and I could feel my heart racing. I would rewind it to the first moment we kissed. Your lips were so soft and I felt the butterflies in my stomach. I remember telling them to go away. It was the exact moment that I knew I wanted to be with you. There are moments that you wish that you were able to pause for every moment that all we did was stare into each other eyes. I remember laying in bed with you and memorizing all the little details on your face. Your smile is so beautiful with eyes that I fell in love with and the deeper I looked into those eyes, I started realize how deep I was in this relationship. There wasn't any rewind button to go back and redo everything over. I'm stuck with you from memories, kisses and my heart racing for you when I hear your name. The whole relationship was perfect in the beginning then I started to realize how much more I wanted from you. You can't give me everything but all I want is to be able look into your eyes and only see me. Not see other girls who's looked into those eyes. Be able to kiss you every time I want too and not be remind that someone kissed you before me. I want to be able to call you "mine" without a worry that some girl could take you. I want there to be "you and I". After, reading this post start to count how times I've said I or you. I never mentioned what you wanted because I'll never know what you want from me besides a conversation and just to hangout with. I'm just nice, cute and funny but isn't there more? You wonder why I worry and get upset over little things. I never truly had you since the beginning. When's the beginning going to start?"  -JM

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