Book Two - Just Enjoying My Life.... Right? (Completed)

Chapter 29

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Well the time has come. It’s now three weeks later and I’ve decided to do the test. Yes I know I should have done it by now but I haven’t. I didn’t intentionally put it off. What with Sam working and me at Uni, time has flown and I didn’t think about it. While I am 100% certain it’s positive, I’m still nervous about doing it. In the back of my mind, one part of me thinks it could still be a false alarm. Once the test is done, that’s it. No turning back.

The advantage of putting it off has meant I’ve had been able to get used to these weird pregnancy symptoms. My tiredness hasn’t improved which has made Uni next to impossible. The solution? External study. It’s a godsend! I prefer to study with people but in my state I just can’t. It’s not easy studying alone but it’s easier than going out every day. It means I can take naps when I need them, which makes a huge difference.

I do have regular email contact with my lecturers and fellow students. They even have Skype linkups available if I need them. It’s really not that bad. So in between studying, weird food cravings (chocolate covered pickles are my new favourite food), sleeping and learning my house wife duties, it’s been an interesting few weeks.

Because of being so busy I've managed to keep my mind off of how much I miss Nancy. We still don't talk much, which is really hard. The rare times we do, I notice she’s still being very secretive about something. I’ve asked her what’s going on but she won’t tell me. I've persisted but every time I do I am greeted with a silence or an 'oh nothing'. I try to be angry but I can't because I haven't told her my news yet either so we’re both guilty of keeping secrets.

Now I'm about to start my fourth week of Uni and I'm feeling pretty good about things. I never got my enthusiasm back about Uni and now I've figured out why. It's not all about study anymore. If the truth be known I could quite easily forgo study all together and not get my degree. But I don't want to do that. I've worked so hard to get this far, I might as well go all the way. Besides I plan to get a job one day and I still want to work in journalism.

It'll take me four years to do this course and by then, my child will be old enough so I can return to work.

This thought chills me. I still can’t get through my head that in four years time I’ll have a child about to start kindergarten. Don’t get me wrong, I’m starting to get excited about having a child but it’s not sinking in yet. I’m not supposed to be a parent at 18, well I’ll be 19 by the time it’s born. I had planned to wait until I was in my early to mid 20s. Still accidents happen and I’m as prepared as I can be.

Well so I thought. Now I’m staring at the pregnancy test and my heart is pounding against my ribcage. There it is. A big fat positive. Isn’t it funny? We’ve known for weeks that this is most definitely happening but now that it’s confirmed, I’m petrified.

My reaction is totally unexpected. My breathing becomes laboured and the enormity of the situation hits me. My god, I’m going to be a mother! Feeling my legs weaken underneath me, I sit on the bathroom floor with my back against the wall.

Suddenly feeling dizzy, I place my head between my legs and take a few deep breaths. This is huge. This is completely life changing. This is crazy! God I shouldn’t be reacting like this when I’ve known for weeks!

The deep breathing has calmed me down somewhat and the shock starts to subside. I look at the result again and shake my head. This is unbelievable. How did it happen? After our last scare we’ve been extra careful.