An Easy Friend

Chapter 49

March 28 2016
Dear Kurt,
  I think I can finally say that I've let go. Not fully, but at least enough not to get a pang of sadness in my chest when I think about you.
  Whenever I think about your eyes, I don't think about their anger or sadness. Instead I feel grateful I ever got to see those beautiful blue orbs in person, that I got to see how bright they shined when you got an idea. Whenever I listen to Heart Shaped Box, I don't start to cry. I sing along and thank the universe for giving me a man who was so talented and so full of love. Whenever I see Frances, I don't get deja vú (or the K.C. Jeebies as she calls it). I feel lucky that she has your mind and talents.
   You've left such a lasting impression on people. You have no idea how much you mean to your fans, how much they appreciate you and your music. I don't know if that means something to you anymore but just know that you are among the heroes and legends that you grew up admiring, and that's something worth mentioning. You did that, Kurt.
  And in the end I still think about you, but that doesn't make me sad. It makes me happy. You make me happy, even after all this time.

I'll never forget you,
Ally