together again // tronnor au

fifteen

Connor's POV

I woke up the next morning, after only getting around one hour of sleep. I lay awake, tossing and turning, thinking about the evening before.

I got out of bed, even grumpier than usual. I didn't even really bother styling my hair, not caring if anyone judged me for it. I brushed my teeth and changed into a sweater, beanie and slid on some sunglasses. The perfect "I'm not in the mood for talking, but I still cared enough to wear something nice" outfit.

In the ten minutes that I had specially set aside for a quick breakfast, my mind was racing, and I was left over thinking last night again.

Shit.

What had I done?

Did I regret it?

If I could turn back time, would I have pushed him away? Or would I kiss him back again?

I mean, it wasn't like we hadn't kissed before. But Troye didn't know that.

I ran my hand through my hair, wishing everything was less complicated. Needing some kind of distraction, I grabbed my phone and some money, and headed out my front door.

Since it was a normal work day and most children would be at school, I decided to head to the park, knowing it would be quiet and peaceful, which meant that I could relax as much as possible before my afternoon shift at the coffee shop.

Remembering that Troye had a morning shift, I felt a huge weight lifted off my shoulders, knowing that we would only have to work with each other for one hour. I could just avoid him at all costs, and things would be okay. Or as close to okay as things could be.

How did I even get myself into this mess?

All because of that text from Tyler. I could blame him all I liked, but at the end of the day, it was still kind of my fault.

I frowned, remembering why Tyler had even texted Troye in the first place. The date.

Would Troye still go?

Of course he would, Connor. It's not like he's not going to cancel a date with a boy just because he kissed you. He doesn't like you like that. Not anymore. He's made it pretty clear.

I sighed, wishing I could just sleep and dream myself to a better, less confusing world.

Why couldn't I have just not met Troye?

Wait, no. I take that back.

Why couldn't Troye have just not come back from New York?

But did I really mean that?

Why couldn't Troye have just not left at all?

Would we still be together? Would we have gone to faraway colleges, or would we have studied endless nights together? Would we have lived together? Or would we have broken up and remained friends - or enemies?

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The rest of my quiet time at the park went by, and before I knew it, it was time for my shift.

Yay.

I cringed as I opened the doors to the coffee shop, immediately scanning the room for Troye. He was nowhere to be seen.

I sighed with relief, greeting Bethany with a small smile on my face. "Hey, Beth."

"Hey, Con." She smiled back, before going to serve customers.

I turned, heading to the kitchen. I didn't get far, before I bumped into someone. A tall someone. A someone called Troye.

Just my luck.

"Sorry." I mumbled, avoiding eye contact.

"It's okay." Troye mumbled back, barely audibly.

I tried going around the left of Troye, but failed, as he tried going around the same way. I tried his other side, but he seemed to be thinking the same, and I was blocked again. The same thing happened for another awkward 8 seconds, before I finally got impatient and stepped to the side, gesturing for him to pass first.

"Thanks." He muttered, quietly.

"Have fun on your date tonight." I said, quietly.

"Thanks. I will." He replied. "Hey, Connor?"

Connor. Not even a "Con". Just a "Connor", as if we didn't know each other.

"Yeah?" I responded.

Troye hesitated for a second, before shaking his head. "Nothing."

"Okay." I said, before we both walked away in opposite directions.

And in that uncomfortable moment, no eye contact or friendliness was shown between Troye and I at all.

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Hey guys! Sorry it feels like it's been ages since the last update... School's been especially stressful lately, but I'm feeling so so relieved because I'm handing in an essay that I've been working on for 4 weeks on Monday. I just really really hope I did well. My essay writing skills are honestly quite terrible lmao

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