I was getting ready for the show. I couldn't wait to get out on stage again! I'd spent the whole day in my bunk because BVB had spent their day on our bus. I didn't want to talk to them. Especially not Andy.
JJ went over to my bunk.
"Showtime?" I asked.
"Not yet. I just wanted to check how you were doing", he said and sat down on the bed.
"All right I guess", I said. "I just don't know what to do. I want to talk to him so badly, want to forgive him, but when I see him I just get angry and sad."
"I think he wants to talk to you too", he said.
"Why do you think that?" I asked.
"Because he literally stared at the at the bunks, hoping that you would get out. And he started to smile like a fool as fast as someone mentioned your name. He seems to care about you really much", he explained.
Really? He had said his feeling for me at the concert last night but why? Why wasn't he angry with me? He should be. I was the one who broke the connection between us. He should be the one that was angry and not I. Was I still angry? And why? He didn't do anything wrong. And all this shit happened three years ago! I should have left that behind me by now. Maybe I had?
My head was a total mess.
"So you think that I should talk to him?" I asked.
"Yes. Tell him how you feel", JJ said and left.
Tell him how I feel… How would I be able to do that? I didn't even know how I felt!
Yes you do, the little voice in my head said.
Little voice in my head. Great. I'm crazy now.
You still love him. Why do you reduce to see it? the voice said.
Did I really though? If I still loved him then how could I hate him so much at the same time. Maybe I actually did love him. Love and hate, what's the difference?
Andy's POV
We walked over to the venue we would play at. Tell The Night were doing their concert at the moment. I stood on the side of the stage and watched their concert. When I got there everyone in the band sat down on the floor behind the drums except from Liz who sat on a chair with a guitar.
"This song has been my favorite song for a very long time. It's called Bad Father, Bad Son", she said and started to play.
No fire now, no smoke
Bloody fingers and I'm feeling soaked
Bad father gets bad son
Bad everything, bad no one
Cuz I need the fire
And I need the smoke
My face in a smirk
'Cuz life is a joke
The sun seems to shine
On everyone I know
So why am I in the shadows
'Cuz I choke
Life takes love breaks almost everyone
I've tasted the color of sunshine
Lives will destroy
Kill all the joy
I'm sorry but
I was just a boy
And I need the fire
And I need the smoke
My face in a smirk
'Cus life is a joke
The sun seems to shine
On everyone I know
So why am I in the shadows
'Cuz I'm a joke
No fire now life takes somethin' away
Bloody fingers yet I have nothin' to say
No diving gray
Will take the pain away
Hope I make it clear
Hope I get free some day
'Cuz I need the fire
And I need the smoke
My face in a smirk
'Cuz life is a joke
The sun seems to shine
On everyone I know
So why am I in the shadows
Cuz I choke
Wow. I had no idea that she could sing that good! I'd never heard her sing before, not even when we was together. This was the best thing I'd heard in a long time.
The rest of the band took their instruments and they started to play a new song.
I'd never seen Liz this happy and alive before as she was now when she ran around there on the stage and sang. She'd never looked so beautiful.
Damn Andy, you ruined everything, I thought.
