Freak tried Art (3)

Contest Entry // Freak as Kyle Brofslovski

Remember when I tried to number the entries and stuff? Funny how motivated I was back then and now I'm just this meh. The last two chapter titles are proof...

I Dunno what you're feeling when you're reading this chapter, or when you saw that it was uploaded. I suppose it's hate?
I said I was going to take a break. but I also said that I'd finish xXFireTearsXx's contest entry. So I did:

The pic is crap, I know, but I was too bothered by other stuff. (And I wanna say that I find it weird to be judged on what I like but whatever. I don't got a chance of winning anything anyways)
I chose Kyle cuz I like southpark and he's my fave character in there and I couldn't decide on a fave anime cuz there's to many...
I attempted to make a south park related background. Key word: attempted.
Can't believe this took 4 hours... (yes, kinda the first time I ever said how long it took) the worst thing is probably that 1 of that 4 hours was just used to figure out how exactly I wanted this to work... I even thought about doing Freak in South Park style...

To those who have yet to finish their contest entries:
Please, as soon as you've finished write a comment saying that you're finished under this chapter or under the first chapter in the contest book.
Cuz I really got problems keeping up with who has finished their entry already otherwise.
Those who finished and were already mentioned in the contest book of course don't have to write a comment. However, if you are finished and I missed it, please also write a comment. Thanks.

Anyways, I just wanted to tell you that I read what you posted just a few minutes ago. I couldn't get myself to reply though cause that means that I would have to keep up a conversation. I don't normally mind talking but I'm actually kinda asocial right now for some reason and just wanna shut myself off... I feel so weird.
Honestly, I locked myself into my room and cried half of the time while I just listened to music. Got a headache now.
Also, I fell down the stairs twice cuz, surprise, crying is exhausting and my body apperently couldn't handle it and I almost blacked out. Wow, it sounds even dumber now that I can see the words in front of me.
(Please don't tell me that it's not dumb. It is. Actually, let's just ignore this paragraph, ne?)

I'm sorry for ignoring everything you might be feeling now, but I can't get myself to mind it.

I just wanna ask one last question:
Why are you guys even bothering with me? I'm making you worried and sad and probably like you have to make me feel better. I don't want you to write an answer now, I just want you to answer it yourself honestly.
Just wanna say: I'm helping people I don't actually like or that don't really like me to make myself feel better and to put the focus off of myself. I don't liike being the center of something so if I put the focus on someone else (even if there's only me and the other person) I feel much better. And it makes me feel like I actually got a use when I can help someone.
Hope I can get you thinking. I'm not one to pry into others lives and thoughts but I want you to realise for yourself why your doing this, staying with me I mean. It most likely doesn't do you any good, you know...?

Sorry, I'll be back in a week. Still couldn't get on good terms with myself...
Bye...