RUN AWAY

Epilogue (Finally)

Autumn

It was heartbreaking when the guardians said that I can't have any children. Even Lucy confirmed it. They said that my uterus cannot handle pups without bringing pain to myself because it looks different. They also told me that this must be because of the wound I once had. The guardians said my body actually not 100% back to normal even after Ethan accepted to be my mate and the wound perfectly healed without any mark.

For the entire week, Ethan hardly proceeds the news and blamed himself for that. I'm sad, of course, but seeing Ethan like this also killing me. I told him that the guardian might be wrong, but he won't listen. 

"Ethan, think about how if I can make my body 100% healed again? Or even what if the guardian actually wrong? It's not the end of the world if we have hopes, Ethan." I brushed his hair softly then continued, 

"Even if we can't have pups, please, please, don't be like this. It's not your fault and will never be yours. It's just how things work, Ethan. Sometimes, some things just happened and there's no reason to blame anyone" I reasoned him, pleading. "And it only makes things worse if you face it like this. I'm sad, of course, I am. but seeing you like this? I don't think I can handle that." I continued. I put my hands up to his cheek. Nodded to him, "Everything will be better if we still hoping for it" I smiled and kiss his cheek.

"I understand, but what's made me stressed most is that if we don't have pups, then who will be the next Alpha? Tell me? Jerred's? No! My Father will be disappointed. We need an heir, Autumn." He shrugged. So, that was the reason between that stressed act. Yes, we need an heir. But, if we can't have it then why is it so hard to just pass it to Jerred's firstborn. 

"No, your father will be proud of you. With or without heirs. It will be alright, but don't lose hope, okay? I will always be with you." I calmed him. 

"That's right, as long as you're here, I'll try to be alright." He hugged me. "Thank you. For forgiving me."

"Forgive what?" I asked.

"That I put you through bad things" He mumbled under his breath.

"I told you not to blame yourself, Ethan. You didn't put me to that situation. You love me now. and I love you. That's all that matter now. Please stop blaming yourself, Ok?" I said frustrated. I don't think he will stop blaming himself. Then it struck me. Maybe, he's trying not to. But Greyson was!

"Greyson?" I asked.

"What's wrong with Greyson?" Ethan asked back.

"Will Greyson hear me?" I need to make Greyson stop blaming Ethan.

"I can hear you, so he will." Ethan said. "Why?" He asked and I can hear curiousness in his voice.

"Greyson, I need you to stop worrying, okay? and stop blaming yourself. Your anxiousness made Ethan weak. Made you weak. Please." I starred deep to Ethan's eyes.

Ethan moved a little then said, "No, Autumn. Greyson wasn't blaming himself. He blamed me. He blamed Sophia. He's true, though. I'm the one to blame." 

"Stop it Greyson! You're killing Ethan's heart. Ethan is hurting. I am hurting. No one to blame here, can you understand? This is the life the goddess gave us. You too, Ethan. Can you stop thinking that it was your fault? Let Greyson blamed you, but don't eat that up! Do you understand what I'm saying?" I started to raise my voice, no. Then I sighed when Ethan stay still. Meaning they won't understand. "This is starting to annoy me. I'm going out."

I stood up and Ethan grabbed my arm. "Where? You said you won't leave." 

"Just need fresh air. I can't handle seeing you like this. Audrey needs to shift too. She's pissed because her mate can't understand her. Can't trust her. and that makes me annoyed too. Don't follow." I warned them and went out to the forest.