It's Complicated

I Love You In A Big Way

Maya's POV

The weightlessness of the situation was short lived. The next few days I finally realize that he left. I scared him and he loves Cass. It's a rough couple of days trying to get over the heartbreak.

Those days after the confession are spent with me in bed with Rion. He's the only one that makes me slightly happy. We hang around the house mostly.

I'm so bored and need to get outside. It's stuffy and claustrophobic so I get the two of us ready and head out. I go to Riley's to see if she wants to come with us. When I get to her apartment she's just walking out the door.

"Oh!" She exclaims.

"You going somewhere?" I ask.

"Actually I was going to see if you wanted to go out for a walk."

"No way. I was coming to see if you wanted to go on one with me and Ri." I laugh.

"Perfect. Let's go." She says.

We walk around Central Park for a couple of hours. For some reason she's extremely happy today and that's saying a lot. She's Riley Matthews and she's always happy. I don't really mind though, I've been inside for awhile and I'm just happy to have someone to be with.

"So you doing okay?" Riley asks.

"Ya I guess."

"You're not okay." She says sadly.

"It's okay."

"Maya, it's not okay. He loves you. I know he does."

"Well you must be confusing him with someone else because he doesn't. He loves Cass. I'm just trying to move on. The sooner the better."

"No, don't move on. Just-"

"Riley, just drop it. Lucas and I have gone through hell. Maybe that's the universe saying it's not supposed to happen." She stops talking about it and we continue our walk around the park.

It's beautiful that day. The sun is out and it's warm. The air is full of music and laughter. It's a perfect day and it's only making me sad. Riley notices the drop in my mood and we head back home.

Rion and I stay at Riley's for the rest of the day. Around 5 I get up and say it's time to go but Riley protests.

"Why?" I ask. There's a knock at the door.

"That's why." Riley says smiling. I open the door to find Farkle and Zay.

"M'lady." Farkle says offering his arm.

"What's going on?" I ask.

"Just go with it, Maya." Zay says.

"But-"

"I will watch Rion. Don't worry." Riley says. Now I'm worried. Something's going on. The two lead me to the stairs to the roof.

"Okay, just go up." Farkle says.

"Don't question it. Just go." Zay says.

"First person to go up always dies in the movies." I say.

"I promise there is no chainsaw psycho person. If there is you can kill me." Zay says.

I roll my eyes and head up. When I open the door I can see the New York skyline but there's also pictures. Everywhere. Pictures of me and Lucas. They range from middle school all the way to now. I laugh as all the memories come rushing back. I turn and there he is and I'm rushed with the memory of that one New Years night.

"Lucas, what is this?" I ask in awe.

"Maya," he starts taking my hand. "I've known you for years now and we've ranged from friends to more than friends to enemies. Every day with you is an adventure and I love that. It's always a mystery."

"Lucas-"

"Let me finish, Maya Hart." I smile and shut my mouth. "What I said the other day was a mistake. I panicked. I have been waiting for you to say those three little words ever since I met you. When you left I lost everything. You broke me and I worried I would never see you again. I searched for days for you. When you came back I could finally breathe and you brought Rion only making my love for you grow. I don't love Cass. I don't even know if I ever really liked her. She was a distraction, a bad distraction, but nonetheless a distraction. She was a temporary cover in the hole that I had. I love you, Maya Penelope Hart. I am absolutely, crazy in love with you and I know we go through shit and I know we fight but I can't live without you. I need you. I always will need you. You're my family. You're everything to me. I love you in a big way, Maya."

I'm at a total loss for words so I smile and pull him closer to me. I pull his face down towards mine and kiss him. He's quick to react and pulls me closer deepening the kiss. Everything I have goes into that kiss. All the hurt and loss and sadness and happiness and love goes into it. My breath actually leaves and my heart stops and it's just me and him.

I pull away slightly, "I love you too, Lucas." I whisper. He smiles and pulls me back into another kiss.

I finally have my cowboy.