Hate Is The New Love

Chapter 18 (2) - Things I hate about you

Alam mo 'yung pakiramdam na mas kinabahan ka pa kaysa sa taong tinawag ng teacher niyo? Ganun ang aking nararamdaman para kay Xiam. 

But he looks unbothered. Taray ni mokong, confident rin.  Edi magsama sila ni Jake.

Once again, naghiyawan ang buong klase. Supportive ang mga alagad niya lalong-lalo na si TJ na parang proud na tatay.

Nakapamulsa siyang naglakad patungo sa gitna. Nakatuon ang atensyon naming lahat sa kanya.

I'm really curious kung ano ang sasabihin niya. 

Siguro kalokohan, dyan naman siya magaling.

"Are you nervous Mr.Vargas? " tanong ni ma'am. Diretso lang ang tingin ni Xiam na parang wala lang sa kanya ang magsalita sa harapan.

"Not at all. " sagot niya.

"Then, the platform is all yours. " 

Unti-unting naglaho ang ingay. Feel na feel ko ang malakas na pagkabog ng aking puso. Ba't ba kasi ako kinakabahan? 

Akala ko may kukunin siyang script ngunit wala. Ibig sabihin memorize ni Xiam ang kung ano man ang kanyang sasabihin. I'm quite impressed.

He cleared his throat at nagsalita.

"I'm not exactly sure kung ano ang sasabihin ko sa inyong lahat. But kani-kanina lang, I came up with one. " panimula niya. Nagsibulungan ang iba. 

Kani-kanina lang? So ibig sabihin ngayon lang talaga niya ito kinompose? 

"At pinamagatan itong Things I hate about you. " he said. Hindi ko alam ngunit para akong na-intriga. 

"There's a lot of things I really hate about you. "

He scoffs, "I hate the way you just walk into my life and now I'm already addicted. "

"I hate the way you talk. I hate the way you hate me also, it makes me wonder if you actually hate me or not. "

Nakatitig lang ako sa kanya. 

He just standing there, eyes fixing directly. Nakapamulsa. Nakatingin lang sa kawalan.

"I hate the way you make me think about you all the time, even when I am praying. "

I can't describe what I'm feeling right now. 

Naguguluhan ako. 

Sino ang tinutukoy niya? Is it the girl that he got pregnant?

"I hate the way you look at this one guy, I get mad although we're not together. " he sounds sincere which confuses me a lot. Kailan pa naging seryoso ang isang Xiam Vargas? And I feel like he's confessing his feelings to someone.

"I hate the way your smile makes me feel insane. " 

"I hate the way you that I don't even hate you. "

"I hate the way you make me smile like crazy. "

"I hate the way your eyes speaks thousands of words but only hide them. "

"I hate the way that I assume your someone from my past. "

Habang nagsasalita siya ay hindi ko namamalayan na nagtutubig ang aking mga mata. 

There's something about Xiam's sincere voice. Parang karayom na tinutusok nito ang puso ko.

"If I would say everything, probably this will take me years. " mahina siyang natawa. "But you know what, no matter how hard I'm trying to persuade my feelings into thinking that I hate you. Hindi ko kaya. "