That one word what changes lifes. (Nicholas mcdonald fanfic)

Nicole's house part 2

Jess pov

That night I hat a nightmare, I woke up In the middle of the night and cried silently, I sat there and looked through my suitcase and found my razor, i brought it to my writs and dragged it across I did that a few times and then let the blood fall down my arm, I wiped the razor clean and then wrapped my arm up gently and then went back to sleep well tried, after a while I got bored of trying so I pulled my headphones out my bag and plugged them into my phone and put then in my ears and put one direction album on and lied down listening to the music.

I kept thinking back to my first audition, Nicholas he gave me confidence and he got through to bootcamp but I hope he got to judges house and hope he will get to the live shows. He had been playing on my mind for the last few weeks and it was nice.

--- the morning ---

I managed to get half an hour sleep with my music on but it's better than nothing, my arm had stopped bleeding and I saw scars starting to form. I got out of bed and grabbed a pair of red jeans, my red hoddie and my yellow top with a cupcake on.

I was sitting in the liveing room with hannah and Tamera we were close I hope these toe get through to the live shows and if they do I hope I do to.

" have you had any boyfriends" hannah asks me

"Nope" I say truthfully, they looked shocked but it was true

"But your so beautiful you must have had at least one boyfriend" tamera says to me and I shake my head

--- time skip ---

Today was the day we proform our song for Nicole and Mary J Blige I wasn't nurves I had been practicing as much as I could and know if I go home tomorrow I go home if I go through I go through.

Evreyone was waiting to be called me Hannah and tamera were sat talking untill tamera was called

"good luck" me and hannah say to her in unison and she smiles at us and goes and dose her proformance. Next I was called up

"Hello sweetie how have you been" Nicole asks me smileing

"I've been fine thank you" I answer

"What song you going to sing for us today then" Nicole asks me

"I'm going to be singing burn by Ellie Golding(sp)" I say with as much confidence as I could. I looked to the piano player and nodded, the music began to play and I began to sing

" We, we don't have to worry 'bout nothing

'Cause we got the fire, and we're burning one hell of a something

They, they gonna see us from outer space, outer space

Light it up, like we're the stars of the human race, human race

When the light started out they don't know what they heard

Strike the match, play it loud, giving love to the world

We'll be raising our hands, shining up to the sky

'Cause we got the fire, fire, fire

Yeah we got the fire, fire, fire

And we gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

We gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

Gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

We gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

We don't wanna leave, no. We just wanna be right now (right), r-r-right now

And what we see is everybody's on the floor acting crazy, getting loco 'til the lights out

Music's on, I'm waking up, we fight the fire, then we burn it up

And it's over now, we got the love, there's no sleeping now, no sleeping now, no sleeping

When the light started out they don't know what they heard

Strike the match, play it loud, giving love to the world

We'll be raising our hands, shining up to the sky

'Cause we got the fire, fire, fire

Yeah we got the fire, fire, fire

And we gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

We gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

Gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

We gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

When the light started out they don't know what they heard

Strike the match, play it loud, giving love to the world

We gonna let it burn burn burn burn (burn burn)

Burn burn burn burn (burn burn)

We can light it up, up, up

So they can't put it out, out, out

We can light it up, up, up

So they can't put it out, out, out

We can light it up, up, up

So they can't put it out, out, out

We can light it up, up, up

So they can't put it out, out, out

When the light started out they don't know what they heard

Strike the match, play it loud, giving love to the world

We'll be raising our hands, shining up to the sky

'Cause we got the fire, fire, fire

Yeah we got the fire, fire, fire

And we gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

We gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

Gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

We gonna let it burn, burn, burn, burn

When the light started out they don't know what they heard

Strike the match, play it loud, giving love to the world

We'll be raising our hands, shining up to the sky

'Cause we got the fire, fire, fire

Yeah we got the fire, fire, fire

And we gonna let it burn"

The piano stopped and Nicole and Mary J clapped

"What do I say that was amazing as always" Nicole tells me and I smile

"For the first time I heard you I think that's amazing, I think you can make it all the way to the finals and win this thing" Mary J explain to me and it makes me smile more.

"Thank you" I say nurvesley now.

Nicole says more stuff and then I leave info back to my room and I sit on my bed

--- the next day ---

Today we were finding out who's to the live shows. I had another nightmare last night and I cut again but what none knows won't hurt them.

"Jess as you know I can only take three people to the live shows and i think you are so great, your amazing and I want you on my team, I am takeing you to the live shoes" Nicole says to me and I freeze slightly and thren I squeeled happily

"thank you thank you thank you" I scream happily

Evreyone was told of here through or not and then we could go home tomorrow. It's been the best week of my life so far, I had a great day great week.