Now I know her name 💗 [ A Shawn Mendes Fanfic]

35. What If?

I was in his arms; his lips pushed against mine with great passion.

At first instinct I wanted to stop.
Aaron was on my mind.
I couldn't hurt Aaron.

But a moment later everything felt right.
Like I belonged in his embrace.
I kissed back and we continued for a fair while.
We moved until I had my whole body pushed against the wall.

Our lips moved together as one.

God I missed this.

Suddenly we hear a faint knock on the door.
It's the waitress with our drinks.
Shawn steps back as we compose ourselves.
I look at Shawn.

That shouldn't have happened.

I made a deal.

As the night goes on I feel the guilt rising inside me.
All I can think of is how much Aaron would hurt if he found out.

What if someone would've seen us?
I know no one can up here but even so.
What if?

"I think I should go" I say unable to look Shawn in the eye.

My breath is uneven and I really need to be able to clear my head.
I stand up and apologise repeatedly as I leave.

"Wait Vanessa, it's my fault" Shawn says but I don't stop.

I keep my head low and run outside before I get in my car and just begin to drive.

Drive wherever the roads take me.