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Chapter 12 [•]

~~~~* Jihyun's Pov *~~~~

I froze as i took in everything that just happened.

He is gay..... for me? So ironic though.

Now everything clicks together. The puzzle is complete.
All the pieces are now explaining everything. 
Him being too nice.
Him worrying about my grades at school because of our schedule.
Him worrying about my anorexia.
Him being quite.
Him avoiding me.
Him blushing around me.
Him stuttering while talking to me.
Just everything.

I slowly turned my head towards him again facing his blushing face. He was looking down at his feet.

Should i tell him?

"For me?....." was the only thing that i could bring myself to ask.

"N-ne... so... c-c-could you b-be m-my bo-boyfriend?" He was stuttering way too much.

I felt really bad because I didn't know how to react.
And asking someone you like yo up out with you is already hard enough.
Imagine having to admit to being gay for someone you have no idea of their sexuality.

I just stared at him and he looked at me and saw my utterly confused and full with pity -cause i couldn't say i was a girl- expression and that was something bad.

"Urgh! Forget i even asked! Why did i even ask when i know you're not interested in guys! Why did i ask when i already dont stand a chance to be someone's boyfriend who is as perfect as you? Just forget what just happened...." he said and i could hear him insulting himself under his breath.

He stood up and was about to walk away. I quickly stood up not thinking anymore and just acting.... so..... i back hugged him.
Im so stupid for giving him hopes since i see every member as my older brother...

"No wait!" I said in a whisper.

No what am i doing?! Stop Jihyun! Stop!

[Im now confirming that ive lost complete control of my book guys. :') rip me now this book is an adventure for me the author! :'))]

"W-what is it?" He asked.

"I-i need to tell you.... no more like show you something..."

He looked hella confused but sat down and waited anyways. I ran to my  room down the hallway and took the bandages off putting on one of my bras that i hide in a box underneath my bed. I let my hair down and put my hoodie on again.

[This is the best pic i could find. Just the hair are a bit shorter and the boobs are bigger😂]

I ran back to his room and some strands of hair fell into my face.

"Woah! W-who are you? How did you get into the dorm?!" He shouted and stood up in a protective of himself manner.

I sigh as i mive my hands up in surrender "It's me Jihyun..." I said and he looked at me weirdly.

Then realisation hit him.

"What the.... how? why? I mean... *sigh*"

"I'm a girl..." I said and looked at him then down at the floor.

"I had to debut as a guy for several reasons i dont wanna share... and yeah... i have good news for you, you're not gay Kookie erm... should i say oppa now?" I said tagging some strands of my hair behind my ear.

"Oh wow.... you are so pretty to be honest..." he said blushed and looked away.

"Thanks i guess.... okay listen you are the only one that knows about this so keep your mouth shut alright?" I said moving my hand in front of my lips like im zipping them shut and he did the same.

I lied to him because if he knew Yoongi knows too, he wouldn't be so careful.
But if they both think they are the only ones that know they will have no one yo talk about it with except me.

I sighed "I need to go get ready so the others won't see." I said and ran to my room changing back to my old clothes.

I put my hair into a bun and walked out. (Like the one Namjoon had but without the undercut)

Shortly after everyone returned home and i received a letter.  It was from my mum's relatives. They said i should come and visit her grave one last time cause they're going to take her off soon.... i sighed.

"Everything alright there little one?" Jin asked from behind as he tried to look over my shoulder -easy for him since I'm so short- and read the letter but failed since its in greek.

"What the.... what's that writing?" He asked confused.

"Greek... it says i only have a week to go visit my mum's grave for one last time before they take her off soon since my relatives cant pay for it anymore..." I said and sighed again.

"Oh..." he said.

"Yeah i think I'll book a ticket for tomorrow or the day after... I just need our manager's approval..." i said -mostly to myself- and folded the letter and put it in my pocket.

"Hhmm.... Greece is a really nice country which is hot in Summer and has a lot of nice places to visit right? So why dont we all go together to your mum and then have fun for a week or two? Just to get our minds off of our schedule and everything." Namjoon suggested.

"Sounds good. I could guide us around to places i know and everything." I said.

"Alright! Let me ask our managers.." he said and dialled a number.

(A/N)
Idk where this book is going anymore..😩😧

Its like 1 am here so i guess i wont update for today again. Idk😂
We'll see.

Can someone give me back my book? I feel like im just a reader! I never planned Jungkook finding out!😂🔫

Word count: 820 (without a/n)

[Edit: I don't get why I need to make everything so weird when it comes to her being from Greece and stuff. Like when Junhkook said 'What is Greek?' This is so stupid smh]