My Brother's Best Friends // 5sos

Chapter29

A/N ~ This is a pretty long chapter so that's why it was updated slightly later! That and exams - enjoy!♡

Jarvis looks down at our intertwined hands for a moment before a slow grin spreads across his face. He doesn't let go, he holds my hand back. Even if he wanted to let go, I don't think he'd be able to. The sight of Luke and that girl has stirred something inside of me - literally - and I feel like I'm going to throw up. Holding Jarvis's hand is what I need to keep myself steady as we weave our way through the now busy Starbucks. Its also what I need Luke to see.

If that kiss meant nothing to him...well, it meant nothing to me either. He clearly likes someone else and I need to show him that there is no way that I have any feelings toward him, which I don't.

I just have mixed emotions and the kiss confused me, that's all. The horrible aching feeling I have inside my chest right now will surely disappear soon. Maybe I just need a distraction, what's distracting?

"Are you alright there?" Jarvis stops near the doorway and looks down at me, cupping my face in his large hands. This is certainly distracting. We just so happen to be a few feet away from Luke and what I presume to be his girlfriend and for some reason I think Jarvis chose to stop here on purpose. I can feel his stare burning into me as Jarvis strokes my cheek with his thumb, looking me in the eye. "You're looking a little pale." He adds, still brushing his thumb over my cheek.

I don't want to lead Jarvis on, but I need to make sure Luke knows I have no feelings for him. None at all, that what we did in fact was a mistake. In fact, maybe this will be good for me? Jarvis does like me and I remember Paige telling me to have a one night stand...maybe...

"I'm fine. Lets just go." I say, leaning my face into his hands and smiling up at him, hopefully looking flirtatious. The slight problem is, I never ever flirt and I don't even want to just now - I just have to. I don't even have the looks for flirting, never mind the skill. He gives me a lopsided grin that looks like he's...proud of himself? And takes my hand, walking out the door.

When we round the corner, walking past the wide glass windows of Starbucks, I cant help but give a quick glance through to see if Luke is watching. He is.

Luke stands stock still where I seen him last, staring at me through the window. The girl he's with is tugging on his Sum41 tee in the hopes of getting him to turn around, a sympathetic look on her face. I like that band I think glumly. I can see her mouthing his name and he jumps slightly as if shocked by her presence before turning, in the process spilling whatever it was in his mug.

He starts to pat down his black, ripped skinny jeans before quickly looking back up to me. Our eyes lock for a moment and he begins to shake his head. I'm not sure what it means exactly. I'm sorry? This isn't what you think? Don't go? The list of possibilities a head shaking could make are endless but I don't have enough time to ponder as I pass the window. The few seconds it took to walk past felt like hours.

"I'm surprised you agreed to come back to my place." Jarvis laughs, looking down at our intertwined hands. I'm grasping his hand tighter than necessary but its more to keep a grip on things. Not physically but mentally. I'm not going to deny I felt as if I was breaking seeing Luke with that girl. It makes no sense at all but it bothered me.

I'll have to deal with my emotions later. My current problem is Jarvis. When did I agree to go to his place?

"Pardon?" I ask, trying to sound like I know what's going on when that's clearly not the case. He stops walking and looks at me.

"Back in the café, what's it called? Starsboot? Anyway, I asked you if you wanted to come to my place and you nodded...or do you not remember?" He laughs at my blank face. I feel so distracted, I'm having trouble concentrating on the things that matter. All that's running through my head is Luke and that girl or the fact that Jarvis just called Starbucks 'Starsboot'. Who doesn't know Starbucks!?